Dulce

Chappy 9

We all decided without talking to not go to dinner. It isn't safe and to be completely honest, I'm too sad.

So.

We go home.

When we get there I go up to my room and call Brae, "I need you." and that's all it takes for him to say, "I'm coming"

Flashback

"I'm nervous Brae"

"Me too, Mace, I love you" I look into his beautiful green eyes and nodded, "I love you too" It's sad to think he's in danger from being here with me, when I'm so vulnerable.

Danger, it's all I think about. I push away my thoughts, and focus on what should be the most beautiful day of my life. When we walked into the room, there were candles lit, rose petals scattered, and I was still super nervous. But I wanted to show Brae how much he meant to me, since saying it, it's just too hard for me.

He ran his hands over my body. Barely touching, barely skimming. Missing the place i so wanted him to be.

I look at him and he gets my impatience, he chuckles and I groan, "I should've known you were going to tease me Brae" I smile up at him, and he gets to work.

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We both lay in bed exhausted, he finally took my virginity. Oh so painful, but so worth it, I felt closer to him, closer than I have ever felt to anyone.

I feel my phone buzz, I answer it seeing an unknown number, "Que tu quieres, soy ocupado"

"I see you and your boy took the next step, remember what I said, and know, I despise repeating myself" and he hangs up. I look over at Brae sleeping, and know what I have to do, for him.

End of Flashback

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I'm staring at a wall without really looking at it, since my tears are preventing me from doing so. I don't know what to think or what to do. I was waiting for Brae, but he lives an hour away, and he might be on a trip. I feel bad for calling him, but he's all I have, and I don't really even have him due to my own stupidity.

Sad flashy back to 2 years ago, 16 years old

"Braeden, we need to talk" He looks at me like he knows what's coming, we've had this talk before, but this time, I'm serious. I can't do it anymore.

"Macelyn, we've talked about this, you're fine, I love you. We're going to grow up, and get married, I don't care what your parents did to you, you're perfect"

"Brae, I can't. I can't put you in danger every time I see you, I can't be responsible for you getting hurt. It would kill me." He doesn't get it, he doesn't know what I do, "And the longer we stay together the worse it'll be, for you and for me"

"Mace, any danger seems to be a moot point now, I love you"

I'm getting angry, "BRAE I KILLED SOMEONE LAST NIGHT!" Every night, but he doesn't need to know that.

"I- uh" He's shocked, I've told him. He knows the danger.

"I'm an assassin, I kill, I'm a murderer Brae, I love you so much, but you deserve someone better, way better than me. I'm a killer, and you need a wife. I'm not, and will not ever be able to do that for you." It feels like a knife is going through my chest, but I continue, "So I'm saying goodbye now, before it's too late." And I walk away. Away from the only person who loved me, all of me.

I get to the car, "Is it done?"

"Yeah, leave him alone now, please" He smirked at me, "we'll see, Dulce, we will see."

"But I-" Then I'm hit over the head, and everything goes black.

End of flashback, sorry

"Hey" I'm knocked out of my memory, of the worst day of my life, the beginning of hell part 2. I look up to see Brae leaning on my door frame.

"Hi" He sits next to me on my bed, I feel his leg touch mine from the close proximity. He looked into my red, swollen eyes and hugs me without saying anything, and that's all I wanted. Not pity or sadness, fake understanding or sympathy. Just him, just his cool green eyes looking into my stormy blue grey ones. Just his body next to mine, his arms around me. I know I made a mistake, and the fact that he still wants to be with me, near me at least. Makes me feel a little lighter. He is my drug, he is my home, and I realized that even before I ended things. Way before. And that's why I hurt him, to keep him safe.

AN: I'm really happy, so I'm writing. So enjoy an update without a month between them