Dulce

Chappy 15

I lock the bathroom door and I get into the tub, fully clothed of course, because I'm not trying to corrupt or scar anyone. And I begin to write.

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Once upon a time, I loved my life, I was happy. And I wish I still did and was. I'm sorry you guys can't comfort yourselves by saying, 'she's in a better place now', because we all obviously know I'm going to hell. It'll be hard, but you're a bunch of tough bitches, so you'll get over it. I promise. And you know I don't break promises. The only promise I've ever willingly broken is to you Brae, when I said I would never leave you. And for that, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.

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"I love you Macelyn Carem, with my whole heart"

"I love you too Braeden Lorenzo, with mine" The only person who I can trust.

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"Mommy, come play with me!"

"Of course darling girl, I'll be right there"

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"YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING BITCH. HOW DARE YOU EMBARRASS YOUR FATHER LIKE THAT"

"MOMMY NO!"

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Pain and emptiness. That's all I feel.

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"Sweetie, come meet my friends" My 16 year old self was excited, he wanted me to meet his friends!
"Okay Dad, I'll be right down!"

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"Daddy help!" He just laughs, "Maybe next time you won't be such a little slut with your boyfriend in my house. My eyes widened, he knows. "Now let these kind gentlemen enjoy what they paid for." I was shocked. But he left the room, and they ruined me.

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I feel dirty.

Used.

Broken.

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I look down at the letter, and cry. I have to do this, I'm so numb. I need to go, I need to do this for me, because I'm holding everyone back. Nobody loves a broken girl, especially when the pieces are scattered as far as mine. Everyone gets a letter. Even my parents. Theirs aren't nice though.

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I tried my hardest, but I'm not badass enough for this fucked world. I got one-upped. Pranked if you will. But take this, we'll never have to fight over nutella again, you can have it all. Or the couch, yours. Or cake, or any food, or any of the numerous other things we trivially fought over, I love you. And this is my shitty goodbye.

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I look at the razor; with purpose this time, and I start to cut, vertical for results.

It's insane how many times I had joked about this, and now, it's coming in handy.

I hear someone pull in the driveway and assume it's Teddy and the patrol.

I'm done with my first arm, watching the blood swirl into the water.

Pretty and scary.

Shit I'm finally doing this.

I hear someone running up the stairs and start the other arm, I'm finally weak, I struggle to lift the razor. I think Brae got my message,

Sorry Brae, I love you.

They're banging on the door now. And the door is splintering.

But I'm done.

Finished.

Almost to hell.

The door opens and Brae runs in with a panicked look, he sees me and starts crying, "Mace, no. Why baby?"

He pulls me out of the tub and yells for help.

I close my eyes.

I'm so tired.

"Mace stay with me, please."

He's begging.

I laughed weakly, "Remember how you said you would never beg to me" I say weakly.

He looks at me, trying to get the blood to stop with his shirt and towels. "Yeah, I remember, remember when you said you wouldn't leave me?"

I flinch, that hurt more than the blade.

"I'm sorry Brae, so so sorry. Please take care of everyone for me"

"You can take care of them yourself" He says strongly.

But I close my eyes and let the darkness take over.

"MACE?!"

"MACELYN"

"Mace please no"

But I let my body go.

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I jolt awake. Shit. That's one for the therapist. And roll over to hug Adelai in her sleep, we still haven't figured out the bed situation, so we sleep together, after all, I do have a king.

AN: I hope you enjoyed my book! It's short, but the first one I have ever completed. Fun fact one of the first things I ever wrote for DULCE never went in the book, and even I didn't know Addy would be her daughter. I can do a cool fun fact section. I don't know if I want to write an epilogue or not. But we shall see. She was also supposed to die, before the whole Addy situation. Thank you for reading. I really am thankful!

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