Lets Be Real

Teenage Shit

Do you ever want to be remembered? Ever have that moment where you just picture yourself doing something great, something that will get your name out there? You'd be adored by everyone, your story being one that covers others. I had an epiphany (fancy word there) and I wanted to do greatness. I wanted to be so confident that I owned the mere sidewalk.  

But I'm not confident. I can't dance, sing, or talk in front of my high school class. I can't draw, make small talk, or act 'normal'. I can't get good grades, I can't pay attention without my medicine, I can't sleep without my medicine, I can't have stabilization without my medicine. I can't act my age, socialize very well, I can't get a boyfriend, or play sports. I can't memorize the body parts or keep my temper, I can't not judge, or clean up after myself. I have acne all the freaking time. All the time, even when I wash my face twice a day as directed (stupid doctors and shit). My eyebrows aren't on point 24/7. I have tummy hair, which I hate, and I eat unhealthly. 

I just called my dad a puny human and commanded he feed me.  (Didn't work very well)

This is my second attempt at a blog cause obviously the first one on tumblr didn't go to well. (I have one follower and it's my 8th grade sister) 

 There are a lot of things I cannot do that I wish I could. 

But I sure as hell can make my friends laugh (even if its at my expense). I can be loyal as hell. I'm a speed reader and have over 130 books on my bookshelf (besides wattpad, I hate electronic books)

I'm a people pleaser most the time. I'm random (maybe in a bad way, but it keeps me entertained) and I love animals. I love doing different things. I'm a senior in high school and choosing my major is one of the hardest things ever! I want to be a teacher, radio broadcaster, nurse, social worker, foster mom, open an animal shelter, and become an author. There's so many things I want to do in this short life time.  

I want to get married young. I want to live in my shitty, small apartment with my boyfriend while I'm at college. I want to travel but be lazy at the same time. It's a struggle to just get off my couch.

I just want to talk. I enjoy talking and I love meeting new people (even though I don't have the balls to do it in person). If anyone wants to talk about the weather or a personal dilemma, I'm open. This is a judge-free zone.  

Well. I really want food so I'm gonna get off now. I hope I see some people talking back or following or whatever tickles your fancy (that's one of my favorite sayings)