MINECRAFT GODS (Jelix)

Bloody tears

P: I ran as fast as i could to the bathroom but it was too late. He was locked and i prayed to God that he is okay. I knocked as hard as i could on the door and waited for the reply as i cried and screamed. I was destroyed. I hate this feeling. I can't do anything about it. He is on the other side of the door. "J-jack? Are you okay?" i sobbed

J: I sobbed harder and reply. Suddenly i felt the urge to puke so i kneeled down and started to gag.

J: I need to get the food out or i will look like a fucking whale again.
*didn't reply

P: "Oh nooo" i screamed and i started to shake. I need to do something about it. i will call an ambulance. I have no idea what to do. I feel so extremely bad. I am responsible for him, i love him and i don't want to see him die like this. I need to try my best to save him

J: My belly cramped as i felt the food that Felix made me come back up and i whined as i felt my empty belly and throat burn as stomach acid left my mouth

P: "Jesus Christ Jack please stop" DEAR GOD PLEASE DON'T TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME. NOT NOW, NOT EVER. I screamed as loud as i could. And i cried so heavily. I could feel my eyes burning from crying

J: I finished to throw up and felt really lightheaded and weak and i tried to stand up. "F-felix i don't feel good" i whimpered before i passed out and everything went black

P: "Shit, NOOO!! Where is that fucking ambulance?!" I screamed and i punched with my fist to the door. I didn't break the door but i really wanted. I need to save him. I was exhausted. I couldn't cry anymore. I just felt the pain. The worst pain you can imagine..

J: I laid there. On the cold bathroom floor with a small line of vomit running down my cheek as i clutched my sickly skinny hurting stomach and i breathed weakly

P: Oh God finally the ambulance is here. Come on, COME ON HURRY UP. Omg Jack, i hope you will be okay. "Please can you break the door please?" I asked them feeling hopeless about everything. "Yes of course we can do it. Just count to three. 1,2,3.. GO" They broke the door and i saw Jack laying on the ground not showing and signs of life

J: I laid there and my head was filled with one single thought:Hopefully I will die this time

P: I came to him and i held his hand. I started to cry again because my soul couldn't take it anymore. "I love you Jack" I whispered and i looked at the sharp things which i wanted to throw away. Maybe i can take one for myself ...maybe i will need it

J: I groaned as i opened my eyes and rolled over as i started to gag again but i had nothing left to throw up. The gagging made my stomach and throat ache

P: "Omg Jack you are alive" i screamed from happiness. I am not really religious but in this moment i need to thank Jesus for saving my love. "Thank you Jesus, thank you, thank you endlessly much"

J: "F-fe" i groaned. "It hurts"

P: "Let's take you to the hospital. It will be okay Jack, everything will be okay." Ambulance took him on the stretchers to the ambulance car and i just waved at him while i had tears in my eyes and i started to think about that sharp thing which i forgot in the bathroom

J: I closed my eyes and wished that Felix would be here "F-Felix" i called out weakly

P: I was so sad... Sad like i never felt before. I can't even describe how much. When you are depressed you don't know what are you doing right? That was my case.

J: I missed Felix a lot "C-could somebody c-all my boyfriend?" I asked out weakly

P: I felt so alone ... Now i understand what he meant when he said that he didn't know what do to, he just felt so lost ... My look stopped on the razor blade laying on the bathroom sink and i nervously took it. Tears began to fall from my eyes. "I-i-i will do it only a little bit. I am so sorry Jack."  I came close to my hand with the razor blade and gently cut myself. It hurts but it doesn't hurt as much as the pain of losing Jack.