How Everything Began

Chapter 8

Alexandra's POV

I opened my eyes. I remember everything what happened yesterday... or maybe 2 hours ago I don't know. I stand up and put my clothes again. I try to open the door but it's locked. I look around. On the left side in the middle was a bed. On the other side was a couch, a tv, a coffee table, on the other side of the room opposite of the door was a glas door. I opened the door and it was a balcony. It was dark the only light outside was the moon. I looked down it was maybe 3 floors high. There was nothing except the forest. I couldn't jump I would die. And if I could make it outside where should I go? I don't know where the next town is for fucking sake! I just want... I don't know.
„Aww my little princes."
Now I know. I wanted to cry.
„You can't escape." he was behind me. He put his hands on my hips, our bodies were close to each other.
„I know." I said with a broken voice. A silent tear escaped my eye. He came to my right side and whipped my tear away.
„Don't be sad princess. Now we can be together. Forever." after he said that he kissed my forehead.
„I won't let you go. I promise." he hugged me, my head on his shoulder.
„I promise."
„Why?" I collect all my strength and said this little word.
„Why what?" he asked and moved my head from his shoulder so he could see my eyes. The moon illuminated his face. His short dirty blond hair. His dark brown eyes almost black. Filled with lust and care. The tattoo on his shoulder. A sword with wings with a date in the middle. It was the day his father died. I remember how he told me, it feels like it was yesterday. My hearth breaks. Everything he did to me... He forced me to have my first time with him. He raped me when we were together. He forced me to do things that I didn't want to. He was the devil...
But he also was my first love. My first time. My first everything. My mind says he is a fucking rapist but... my hearth breaks. I still love him. After everything he ever did... I would forgive him.
Everything... I started to cry again. I'm breaking apart. Everything hurts. My body. My mind. Like somebody stabbed me in the hearth. Not just in the hearth. Like... 100th of swords which stabbed my entire body.
„Why do you love me? Why did you kidnap me? Why can't you let me live in peace? Why!? You just force me to have sex with you! When we were together you forced me to have sex! To take drugs so I could fuck longer! To do things I didn't want to! Why?! JUST WHY?!" after that I cried the most. I wasn't in control anymore.
„I never had that strong feelings for some other girl like you. Yes I have kidnaped you but because we could be together! I can't live without you! I forced you because you want it too but your guilt isn't allowing you to do it. Because you are scared what your parents would say about it. The truth is... you love it."
He took my hand and he put his other hand on my cheek.
„You are sex addicted. You told me that months ago. Sex is giving you the feeling to be alive. It satisfies you. So I want to make you feel good."
‚What he's telling is disgusting"
„I don't want other guys to have you." he then kissed me but I didn't kiss him back. If he really would love me then he wouldn't treat me like a whore.
I just need to play along till I have his trust and can escape. I would escape, change my name and go away. Maybe to Alaska I don't know. But I don't want to fuck with him. I can't. I feel dirty enough.
„Please just... give me some time. I can't have sex with you 24/7." I said.
„Don't worry I will be gentle." he grinned.
I smiled but inside I cried....
„Let's go in it's cold and we need a shower." he put his arm on my shoulder.
„But we aren't showering together... right?"
He just grinned.
„We save water if we shower together. I don't need to pay so much then."
„You sell drugs you idiot! You have enough money!" I rolled my eyes.
„Just because I have enough money doesn't mean I don't need to save it up."
After he said that we got in....

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