To All The Boys I've Loved Before ;; jisung x Ot8

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the next day jisung didn't go to school. he actually went straight to the entertainment building and demanded to speak to jyp. and so he did.

when talking to the man, jisung explained everything, everything about his life and all his hardships and how he should release what he's been recording now. and jyp agreed, it wasn't easy, but he agreed.

before they released it jisung listened to the words one more time.

give me a reason to smile
even if it's just for a second
i want to see what it feels like to
be happy, happy enough to finally smile
and to finally feel something for the first
time, it hurts so much to see you everyday
you always said to be yourself
but myself isn't the real me
the real me is deep down, it is
someone who i cannot release and if i do
i'm gone.

where did the happy jisung go? he had thought to himself. what had happened to the jisung who wrote happy lyrics, lyrics that could make sense and make him seem like a sensible human being, but then again, was he really sensible? after he's been hurt, and lied to, beaten, and blamed.

he had nothing to care about anymore, as every emotion in him was gone, he could only fake it, fake it till he finally felt something, but nothing was happening, he still felt that dull, and horrible feeling, he didn't want it, he wanted to finally feel again.

"jisung, the song and mv has now been released." jisung looked over to his new manager, "i'm mr.park, but you can call me seonghwa." jisung nodded and smiled. there was a small little spark inside him.

"do you think they'll care about me?" seonghwa sat down next to jisung and smiled. he pulled jisung into a hug and spoke.

"honestly you're such a great singer and rapper, your voice is one of a kind, and the music you produced are so comforting and show how bad you've struggled with things in your mind and real life, that people will care about you, and you'll have signs and concerts of you everywhere." seonghwa said softly.

"and if they don't like you, screw what they think about you, you deserve so much more, you are so much more" jisung teared up. "thank you hwa, it means the world to me. i really appreciate having you around."

"no problem, ji."

this sucked but i had to get something out.