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"Celine" Napatingin naman ako sa taong kumalabit sa akin. Sa pagkakatanda ko siya si Garry?
"Oh hey Garry?" Agad akong sumagot at hinarap siya. Mukha naman siyang nalito sa sinabi ko.
"It's Gabbie, not Garry, Celine" Napailing niyang sabi. Nahiya naman ako sa nagawa kong pagkakamali sa pagkabanggit ko ng pangalan niya. Tumawa ako para maitago ang kahihiyan na nararamdaman.
"Btw bakit pala, Gabbie?" Tanong ko sa kaniya at nakita ko naman ang pag iling niya, at umalis na siya sa aking harap. Oh okay. I know that I am at fault
I only shrugged my shoulders.
"Naaasar ako sayo, Celine" Naiirita na naman ang mukha ni Aela na saad sa'kin. I raised my brows to what she said.
"You know that, I like that guy for you, right?" She said and now I know why she is immensely mad at me right now. It's because of her bias, that Gabbie guy.
"It's obvious" I said while rolling my eyes at dissapointment.
"Look so dissapointing huh?" She blurted out, looking at me while she's smirking.
"He's not worth it okay? Do you wanna ask me muna why did he left?" Agad kong sabi sa kaniya. Dahil kanina pa siya mukhang naasar sa'kin.
"So what again? He left you coz he did not fetch you on time, Celine is that your another reason?" She said while pointing her fingers at me. I just shrugged.
"Okay it's my fault again, okay I just forgot Garry's name, sorry it's Gabbie pala" Napatingin ako sa kaniya tumaray siya habang napapailing.
After the discussion we had. Aela left me in the classroom with my other classmate doing their own businesses.
Nakita ko naman ang crush kong si Kenneth. I like him for years. But he never seen me. And he never tries to look at me even a blink.
My insecurities grows. It still growing until now it never stops because of what he said to me in the past.
"Hay nako, Celine" Bungad sa akin ni Harriette. Dumating na ang iba kong mga kaibigan kasama na din doon ang kaibigan kong nang iwan sa'kin kanina na ngayon ay tumataray na naman ng dumako ang kaniyang paningin sa direksyon ko. Agad kong iniwas ang mata ko sa kanya at tumingin kay Harriette
"Bakit Harriette" Umiling nalang siya sa'kin at agad nagtungo ang kanilang mata kay Kenneth na ngayon ay busy sa pagkalikot ng kaniyang cellphone.
"I'm wildly inlove with him" I just said while staring to the guy made my entire living so hard.
"But he's not, right?" My focus goes to Mikael.
"I tried not to like the guy, I want to stop. But I just can't. If undoing things is so easy maybe you would not be like this, sorry if this things hard for you guys, you can just left me" After that my tears is falling like a falls. It never stops. I walked out from the room and goes to nearest comfort room.
"I like you Kenneth, you leave the squad because of me. You can't comeback because of me also" I just cried not knowingly if I could finish crying.
"Why me, Celine? Is it so hard to forget me? I don't like you. But I love you" Nagulat ako sa pagsagot niya hindi ko akalain na nandito siya. He said while he's holding tissue paper in his right hand while the other one he's holding his phone accidentally showing his and her girlfriend conversation.
"But as a friend" I said continually. While sobbing, he looked at me like a cat that no one really owns me.
"Celine you're hurting yourself" I looked at him and smiled bitterly
"Nasasaktan ako Kenneth walang magbabago doon. Mahal kita ano sa tingin mo ang gagawin ko magpakasaya dahil may girlfriend ka habang ako mahal na mahal ka" I sit in the corner while his eyes stuck in me. Na parang wala lang sa kaniya kung ano ang kalagayan ko.
"Comeback Kenneth. Hindi para sa'kin kung hindi para sa iba pa nating kaibigan na hanggang ngayon ako ang sinisisi sa pag alis mo. Sino ba dapat ang sisihin diba ako naman talaga dapat diba? Dahil traydor ako" As I said that he tries to reach for my hand.
"Don't you dare hold me, I am just a friend. Your girlfriend might kill the both of us if she saw us." I leave the room while crying. I am cry baby. I hate how things goes like this. I hate how I easily cry for that guy.
Even the skies cries for me. Knowing how sad I am. Raining made it so sadder and hard.
"Crying again? For who? Kenneth?" I looked at the guy who smiling like we've known each other for so long. And talking sarcastically.
"Do I know you?" I asked while staring at him.
"You don't know me because you never tried to recognize me. I am Gabbie, Celine. The guy you always dumped. You know that I left earlier not because you forgot my name but because I saw your phone looking at Kenneth's photo" While saying those word. I looked at him and saw a water in his eyes.
"While you were chasing for your man or what you so called ideal man, or true love either. I am chasing for the woman who chase another man, Celine. I am hurting while you are hurting too. But it hurts me thousands while you are saying those words at him. Kung sambahin mo siya parang siya nalang ang tao at lalaki sa mundo. Celine nandito ako. Mahal kita" His tears is now falling to the ground. I don't know why I am crying. But it hurts me while he said those words at me. Dahil parehas kami ng nararamdaman
"Habang iniisip mo na walang nagmamahal sayo, sinasaktan mo ako. I am insulted, Celine. Ba't 'di mo ako makita? Sa tuwing may magandang nangyayari sa'yo si Kenneth na agad? Nandito ako Celine" After saying those word he walked out from me too. I walk towards him and grab his arms.
"Hindi naman ganoon kadaling makalimot, Gabbie. If I can bakit siya? We're sailing on the same ocean. Don't blame me for not liking you back because in the first place I've never asked you that. Ang hirap ko bang kunin? Nahihirapan din ako habang nahihirapan ka Gabbie. But sorry I don't think we're meant. Don't put the blame on me." I said while holding my tears back and walked under the rain
As I chasing that man, there's one person who tried to chase me too. Is this karma?
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