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January 22, 1996 (Monday)
Halle So I guess this nigga wanna be petty, huh? I woke up earlier this morning just to find out that he still hasn't called or even showed his ass back up to "our" home. That's okay, though, because I know he's gonna come running back to me soon. I have shit to do on this beautiful day today, so I don't have time for his shenanigans. I can play the game as good as him.
After leaving a magazine shoot that I almost forgot I had because of the stress this man put me through, I decided to call and ask my good friend Jada to meet with me for lunch. Lord knows I needed the company of a girlfriend because this man has been driving me crazy these past twenty-four hours. Jada is the perfect person to vent to; it seems like she's always there for me. I know that she will support me. On top of that, she isn't judgmental like some of my other friends.
As I'm driving to the restaurant, all I can think about is how nasty our argument was. I mean we argue a lot, but we always ended up making up within hours. Our spats never got to this point before. I couldn't believe he actually said those things to me; it's like he really intended to demean me. However, I know that he's just trying to project his guilt out on me, so I'm just not going to worry about it.
I finally made it to the restaurant, and the hostess showed me to our table where Jada was already sitting. We hugged and immediately started catching up with each other as our waiter took our orders. After we got our food, we started to talk about the argument. I recounted every single word to her as we ate. She looked shocked as I told everything that went down.
"Damn", Jada said in between bites, "He said all that to you? That's fucked up!"
"Yes girl, he really said all of that and the worse part is that the nigga hasn't showed up or even called. It's alright, though, he's gonna come crawling back to me soon." I said, sipping my wine.
Jada stopped eating and looked at me in disbelief. "Are you sure Halle? I mean y'all argue a lot, but this is serious. Y'all even got physical with each other. You really think that you all can come back from this?"
"Of course he will." I took another sip, "It's just another bump in the road. He's just knows that I'm right, so he's being petty. He knows that I'm not falling for his little apologies anymore. He knows that he has to come correct with me from now on."
Jada took a deep breath and paused. "So you're just sweeping this under the rug? He said some foul things to you, and even called you a bitch. He even told you that he regretted marrying you. You threw fucking knives at the nigga; I don't think it's just a small thing."
I just rolled my eyes at her while I ate my food. "Jada you're making this a bigger deal than this needs to be. Okay so it escalated a little bit, but I'm not gonna sit here and cry over it. I'm not gonna beg him to call me. He wants to be petty, so fine, two can play this game. I can be just as petty as him."
"Halle, this isn't a game hun. This isn't something that shouldn't be taken lightly. Ever since you two got together there was drama. He's been cheating on you and you two argue a whole lot. This isn't right. It's toxic, and you deserve better, girl. You're too beautiful and good of a person to be putting yourself through this."
"I understand your concern Jada, but you're on the outside looking in. You don't know him like I do, and our relationship hasn't been just horrible all of the time. We have our ups and downs just like every other marriage. Like I said before, it's just another bump and we'll get through it. I'm gonna be okay, we're gonna be okay, you don't have to worry about me girl."
Jada sighed, "I'm just worried about you, that's all, but if you're say you're alright then I'll chill. Just know that you got my support if things get tough."
"You have nothing to worry about Jada Koren Pinkett. It's all gonna be good." I smiled.
"Whatever you say, Halle. Don't let me have to beat a nigga's ass, now. You know I've been taking up karate! I'll go hi-ya on a nigga!" She started making those noises like Bruce Lee.
I busted out laughing at her antics, almost spitting out my food. "Calm your short ass down girl! You don't gotta do all that."
We laughed as we finished our food and joked around some more. After a while, we paid for our food and walked out the restaurant. We hugged and agreed that we would meet really soon. She told me that she meant what she had said, and to really think. We headed our separate ways, and I got in the car to head home.
As I'm driving, I couldn't help but think about what Jada said. I know that our relationship has been tumultuous to say the least, but we always managed to get through the tough times. Tears started to brim my eyes as I kept trying to convince myself that we can move past this one. I know that we have our issues, but what married couple doesn't? I know that he'll come around soon, even though it's taking a while.
