Sorry sorry for not updating earlier but I'm a nurse and a singer, I have to prepare for concert and work my ass off, How dare u ... seriously my time is passing before my eyes...TIK TAK sorry Again
This is only a short part more like a sneak peek 😉 xoxo
Beam POV
Laying down on my bed an feeling kind of blue. I know that feeling Well as soon as it starts I can't stop it anymore. Feeling alone and Lost....
I remember it like yesterday. The moment I realized that I was left alone. It was my 13. birthday I was with my parents at home celebrating ... they started to fight again at some point my father yelled at my mothers face that he has affair with his secretary and she was pregnant.
My mother lost it and ...Klapp...... she slapped my fathers face and chased him out the birthday party was over
that night my mother was drunk and took some sleeping pills, she didn't think much she just wanted to sleep... I thought I was going to loose her when I found her lifeless in bed. I called mooom ... MaMa... momi ... sniff sniff I was crying I couldn't move my aunt Nok my Nanny our help at home heard me... she called the ambulance and that's when the Nanny took care of me. I saw my father once after that and never again I decided not to see him again... heard from my mother that he has two kids now I found his wife on Facebook she is always posting happy family pictures and he is at home every birthday of his Kids.
My mother only works she writes me sometimes on my birthday a message or a day later. Ever since then I don't celebrate my birthday. I see my mother lifeless in that bed every night
I stopped believing in love since May my first and last girlfriend in Highschool cheated on me at yes it was my on birthday. She said I was depressing ...
That was the birth of the Casanova Beam. Now the only people that are always with me never once forget me are Pha and Kit....
Friends stay friends, love can change anytime and you are left alone.
Oou...I didn't even realise that I was crying ... but the pain in my heart was deep
How can I destroy my friendship with Forth just because of something changeable like this
I mean I don't know him as long as Kit and Pha, but he was there for me when I was unsure about my feelings for Kit and was scared of destroying my bestfriend relationship for my selfishness
and the way he is with his Juniors is amazing he is known as fierce but is kind to them
Aaarrrg ....no....I only need my friends not love ...sniff ...sniff
Okay Beam stop crying and talking to yourself like a crazy person
I sit on my bed and take my phone No messages from Pha or Kit only Forth again
Hey want to hang out later and have lunch with the guys???
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So...hope you guys like it
Keep it up with me na
xoxo
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