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Beams POV
I woke up shortly before 9 pm I feel refreshed and wanted to do some assignment I had to do till Monday I was expecting to have at least thousands of messages from Pha and Kit but nothing I had one from Forth asking if I had dinner and if everything was alright I don't want handle that now I aswerd yeah yeah I had some and everything is good
I'll just eat some Instant Noodles and I ne of the story.
I started doing my assignment I had a Question about a case so I just write in the group chat we have
Beam- Hey Pha, Kit what are u guys doing ?
Pha - Going out with Yo
Kit - Ming invited me to a Movie
Beam- Okay have fun ....I didn't want to ruin their date so I became quite
Pha - thanks take care Beam don't go to wild
Kit- are u going to the bar ? Take care use protection or you'll get diseases
Beam - you guys are stupid I'm good see u
Sigh
Just do you thing Beam They have boyfriends now.
I wanted to go to toilet but I moved to fast and the pain was killing me I took another pain killer and went back to bed after while I made myself some noodles.
Ping
I got message it was Forth again
Hey Beam are you okay??.. do you have sometime tomorrow?
Sigh
I don't want to talk about and distroy our friendship so decided to ignore it
Bing
Forth- come on Beam you said u wanted to keep being friends let's clear that ?
Sigh
Ring ring - Forth's calling
I won't pick up
Ring ring
Turned off my phone
That's what I'm trying to do idiot, I...what if we destroy a good friendship because we had sex it was just sex , woow now I'm talking to myself maybe I lost it
I didn't have the energy to write
back so I just went to sleep again.
There is one thing I hate the most is losing people that mean something to me, losing a friend and I learned from my parents that everybody is changeable just like my father got himself a new family and mom traded me with work power success (Beams thought)
And I fell a sleep again
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It's sunday morning I woke up cause the sun shined trough the window right to my face its 7am Iam feeling a lot better. Even when I slept like the whole day yesterday my ass still burning like hell what did this guy do with me ...??? sigh I went to my mini kitchen and got myself water and again a pain killer, took a shower and decided to go out get myself some food. Thanks god the pain killer was working I could at least walk a bit normal I went to the Korean food stall and got myself some porridge. While I was eating I realised someone standing at my right side looking at me.
What the fuck are you doing here??
Forth POV
I went home before 12pm and I tried to talk to Beam and wrote him I even called him he didn't pick up the phone so okay Beam then I'll get to you
The early bird catches the worm
I said to myself grinning like crazy
As soon as I woke up this morning I went to his room but he didn't open the door. I was browsing his IG and I saw a post about his favourite food it was a korean near here so tried my luck
I reached the place And didn't have to search long there he was beaming his charm everywhere
Girls were drooling over him he is not even noticing it
I walked to him and was just standing there without saying a word till he notices me.
What the fuck are u doing here?? Beam was asking me
Looking for you- I answer
Why? -Beam
Because we have to talk Beam-
Forth
About what? - he is irritated
Us -I told him
Fuck Forth...there is no us only me and you separated as friends I mean we keeped being friends even thought that PhaYo happened, and you lost to him
Don't make me a replacement
And just be my fucking friend and don't make it it complicated All I need is you as my friend and nothing else... he got teary and keeps talking Or just leave me alone don't say you are falling in love with me ... I don't need love
He was mad but his Eyes were sad
I felt some pain in my heart while he said that could not say anything against that, One thing I'm sure I want to keep him and somehow Beam seems scared of something.
Is the food good here ?? - I asked
He looked at me and smiled yes it is.
My heart skipped a beat because of that smile..he is so beautiful and handsome
we talked casually like we always do till some really beautiful girls came to our table
Hey Beamiiie
I didn't see u at the bar yesterday or Friday are u up to some fun today ??
I felt myself boiling inside
Beam was cool als always was smiling
Maybe I'll see but for now leave me and my friend alone you are disturbing he said that smiling but his voice was clear and left no space for misunderstandings
The girls just smiled you know were to find us right ...faculty of Art
And they went
Maybe he said ....I'll see.....that's all that I could think about. Isn't he in pain anymore. My heart stings
We were about to go when I saw how he grabbed the table till his finger turned withe and his brows frowned
So he is still in pain...Did u bring you car ???- Forth asking Beam
Ehm no it was just 10 min walking - Beam answers
I'll drive you home - I said without looking
No need I... -I cut him off
That's what friends do when they help each other -I said to him
He closed his mouth again and let me drive him home with my bike even when he don't like it. I left him at the lobby
...Don't walk around while you still hurt heal first- I said to him and left...
Beams POV
The moment I told him there is no us and I don't need love, he looked hurt, for me love is just an imagination created to hurt people so I don't think It exists.
It's not that I felt nothing we had great, painfully sweet sex and thats it ....even when something in stomach feel strange after that. It was just sex and nothing else.
I let him bring me home even when I hate this dangerous machine his uses as transport way.
Now I'm back in room, put my phone on the night stand and realised the date .... it's my birthday soon
I felt pain in my heart and felt lonely
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