Rollercoaster

Chapter 10

The end of my rollercoaster was after my stitches came out. The nurses came everyday for 2 weeks straight to check up on how I was and how the healing process was going. They also cleaned the operation more frequently so it could heal better.

After the two weeks I was laying down seeing my children go out to the doors and make their way to school. Then from school they would enter our home doors after a whole day's worth. It always felt like the day went by so quick when they were at home but as soon as they left the whole day dragged.

After 4 weeks, I went to the hospital and had my check up complete and everything was perfect nothing was out of the ordinary. My operation gradually healing, the doctors put me on tablets and gave me cream to put the irritation down and stop it. The irritation felt like ants crawling inside of me as it got more healed up in the process.

If I had any problems all I had to do was call the consultant up and they would assist me with whatever I needed. I was lucky to have all the support I needed.

After 3 months whilst my skin was healing and becoming tougher, my hair was coming through at last, I could see stubbles slowly becoming visible and I couldn't wait for it to grow and watch the process take place.

My journey with this battle wasn't the best just like everyone who has been through it. Everyone wishes and prays they don't get cancer but when it comes it doesn't care about age it comes and takes everyone by shock.

However, I found that life is way too short. This for me made me realise how much I valued my life, my opportunities, my responsibility as a daughter to my parents, being a mother for my children and being the best wife to my husband.

I went through a path of mostly downs going deeper and deeper, but after that a path of light shone through and gave me another chance. A chance where I realised where I stand with most relatives, a chance to see my children grow up into the very best and see them achieve the most they can get; a chance to grow old with my husband and continue having the best time with him.

This made me much stronger, my rollercoaster ride had it's ups, turn of events, and its high hopes and it has finally came to the end. The final leap with faith. The push to continue life and have a longer life filled with happiness with my family. My loves. My meanings to life. This was the end of the rollercoaster experience.

Altinnermin's P.O.V:

Dear diary,

My mum had her last appointment yesterday which means today I get to kiss her and hug my mummy slowly. I get to kiss mummy on the cheeks once again. Once she came back from the appointment yesterday as she had her check up she entered our houses doors and her tears were strolling down her face and she told us everything was good now and that her operation still needed to heal but she was okay.

So that means no more staying at the hospital, no more sleepless nights and no more what if's. Diary im so thankful, I may be crying but it's all happy tears. My mum made it, she can see me grow up, I get to kiss her cheeks, I get to give her more hugs diary. She can be with daddy now and dad will be happy and I won't ever see him cry. I love my mum so much diary. I thank Allah for making her stay with us. My rollercoaster ride has also been everywhere but one thing I know is that I am only there for the family members who helped me diary.

My rollercoaster experience maybe different to my mums but once you combine me and mummy together we win, she win's, she beat  cancer. My mum is a survivor and I am so proud of her and for how she coped, she is a warrior my lioness forever.

Love Altinnermin.