My New Addiction

Meet Aaliyah

Rewritten and edited (7/17/2021)

Aaliyah POV

Have you ever had that feeling where you just want the world to disappear and you want to numb your pain in any way possible.

And I do mean any way possible.

Well for me that was the case and I didn't go about it in the best way but that was just the tip of the ice berg.

It's not like I had a bad childhood or was hurt physically or abused by a relative. But anything in this day and age, even the smallest thing in the world can cause you to feel like your suffocating.

Well before I continue let me just say this isn't a typical story about teenagers.

It's about life, deal with it.

As I sit in this rehab, which my mom made me go to after I overdosed. I would like to say it was a accident but then I would be lying and I'm sure you wouldn't want a liar as your narrator.

Just saying.

"God we ask that you show us the way to help change the things we cannot see" a prayer that our leader starts as we all sit in a circle holding hands but I just sit there staring just waiting for my days to be up in this hellhole.

I sit across from Rue our eyes connect as I know me and her are both thinking the same thing. She gives me a small smirk before looking away.

"Amen" our leader concludes and a round of applause follows.

I just sit there with a blank expression on my face.

The leader later walks in a circle handing out pendants. I smile at her and give her a hug but little did she know this really didn't mean much to me.

She later gives one to Rue who gives her a small smile and hugs her too. I notice she's just staring at it and not really paying it any attention.

We later walk away too our rooms as we all get ready to head home. I walk into the room and see Rue packing her stuff in her suitcase.

We didn't really talk much but if we did it would be real brief.

"You ready to leave tomorrow " I ask her. 

"Yeah, I guess" she says while putting her hands in her maroon oversized hoodie that she never takes off.

" You got any plans after you leave " I ask.

Rue just gives this look I couldn't explain and she just says one word.

" Nope " as she walks away.

" Well then, there's that conversation " I say aloud and continue packing.

I'm honestly not ready to go home especially since it holds painful memories.

Later that day

It's time to finally leave and usually I would be happy but I already know once I leave here my life is going to be different.

Especially since I spent half of my summer in rehab.

As I'm packing I hear a girl scream out " Rue " and when I look I see Rue embracing a girl, it must be her younger sister Gia who Rue mentioned a couple of times.

As she's about to leave she looks back at me and waves and I return it and continue watching as she leaves.

" Knock Knock " Karen says as she enters my room.

" Your parents are here " she says with a smile on her face.

I sigh and gather my suitcases and walk.

As I walk my mom, Janine instantly runs to me and gives me a big hug.

" I missed you so much " she says while still holding onto me.

" I missed you too mommy " I happily reply back. 

My sister Le'Anna or Anna to us runs as well and also gives me a big hug.

" I missed you booby " she says while laughing. 

" I missed you more " I say back. 

I wave at my dad but he just looks at me.

" Let's go " he says turning around to enter the car.

My mom grabs my suitcases and says he's still a little upset don't worry about him.

I just nod my head and hop into the car.

I hope that this school year goes by quick.

Once I'm home I go back into my room and sit on my bed and I realize how much I actually missed my room and being home.

Ding!

My phone goes off and I checked and it was a text from Fez who tells me that he's happy i'm home and asks me to come see him.

Despite my hesitation I tell him I'll be there later on as I press send instant regret clouds my mind.

" Don't worry just say no " I tell myself and I fall back on my bed.

I look around my room and see my room was untouched. I look through my dresser drawers and see the pill bottles some were still filled up.

I looked at the bottle of Oxycontin and Opiates and I just shake my head but instead of pouring them out, I just putting back in the drawer.

I know what you all are thinking but I promise I'm gonna stay clean.

Or at least attempt to try and stay clean.

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