I Love You

chapter four

    I wake up late and with a very bad hangover ever. I wake up in my car on the passenger seat , maybe at between 4 am or 5 am . I myself don't know how I ended up in front of my house. I doesn't even remember what happens last night , did I drove myself here last night? With whom I talking to, did I do something embarrassing last night ?

   I really need Tynenol or something to eat. God , my head hurt a lot . I don't even know what is it now but all I do right now is drifted back off to sleep all day. This is the worst day ever. I have work and , let's hope that the head didn't come to the pharmacy today.

  Whether I'll be late or not , I just have to go to the pharmacy. I really want to stand up but , I'm really lazy to do so. Sighing , I flattered my eyes open and staring straight to the white ceiling with a small chandelier. It's really small , like a night lamp.

  The dream last come inside my mind.

  I sigh , it's feel real . I don't know what come over me but , somehow , I did hoping that it was real . As much as I want it to be real , it's just a dream. It's been two years since I dream about him.

   Two years , ... It's feel like forever.

  I shake my head , telling myself to not remember it all over again. It'll break my heart if I rewind everything that happens two years ago. How much I hate myself and... Him

  I stand up , nearly fall on the ground when my head spinning. I really need Tynenol or else I'll die rotten here. How much , how much I want to kill Leo right now. He make me late once again.

  I grunting , holding my head with my palm. "Fuck," I curses make my way to the bathroom.

 
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    And I still go to work even though I'm late. Lucky me there's no the head here or else. Anyway, I'm still really need to sleep cause'I might have sleep deprived throughout the day and , how I wish someone was here to replaces my night shift. I really have a late shift today . Maybe I'll be back in ten or later , around twelve.  A very bad headache didn't really helped at all.

 
   I have my head lay down on my table , it's not my turn to take care of the counter . My job is now to analysis all the paper the head send me last night and now I just saw it . And , I'm too sick to move my hands.

  I try to close my eyes, but it's only make my head even more hurt . So whether I like it or not , I just have to keep my eyes open ..

  Well, lucky for Leo that he call in sick mean he have the one day off. And , me? Still working , I'm a pharmacist and never call in sick . I ,uh , well— even walk out from my work when my shift isn't end yet and getting yells bu the head.

  Well I did apologise and nearly being ignores by the head. It was embarrassing when the other employees look at me in shame and disgusted. But that was two months ago , and everyone seems to forget about it already. But still, not all forget about it . Sometimes when I showed up in the hospital , I have to walk with my head hang low a little bit. I still embarrassed by the fact I was yelled by the head.

  Anyway, I already eat my medicine and actually it never really did.

  I has experience with having migraine while study. You'd tell me—i fainted twice at University. But , Oxford University is rich and famous also responsible . They paid off the bill at the hospital say that I'm one of the top five students in Oxford's and they be glad to paid it off for me . When I wanted to pay back , they refused . Say "it's okay, it's out responsibility" . All I do was just smile and Wondering—why they helped me?