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When you're a kid you just don't need much to be happy and i wasn't a exeption. I was this   little girl , Brown eyes , Brown hair , big smile , little chumby , reckless , creative , talktive and most important i was Happy .

Happy is a adjective that I don't use that much right now, actually I don't remembre the last time i was really happy.

Growing up i was always the small chumby friend but with all of my other qualities i didn't even care. I was a very funny smart active student sometimes not behaved but polite. In elementery school i was what i can say popular. I was a girl who played soccer , dress like a "boy" , but i was pretty , at that time i didn't care about being pretty but i think now looking at the past i never saw myself as a pretty girl, and all of that was because i was the "chumby friend". But as i said before i didn't care at all.

By the time i was  9 i started to look at boys in a diferente way because all my girl friends did the same, so i started to care about being pretty. The first mental breakdown i had was  at that time when i started crying in front of the mirror, my mom was next to me and just told me to not be stupid. The years pass by and my friends were pretty and in my head i was "fat". Being fat was never a problem, yeah it mess some things up but it didin't changed my life that much until i was 12. 12 years old, a pre teenager, i was at a new school with my friends. Everything was diferente, i was no longer popular , talktive, funny, extrovertid, now i was just insecure, i hated being alone in the school even just for 10 seconds i hated when i had to read/talk out loud, i didn't know what was happening, a lot of  people called me "very pretty" but those words didn't stay in my head, the ones that stayed was "you eat so little but you still fat" "fat" "even if she goes to the gym she will never get skinny" i still ear the voice of the people saying that, some of them were joking but i couldn't let go.