I can't continue

Pt. 6

I've always imagine this situation when Alec Scott was holding one of my hands and his beautiful blue eyes are following every my move. Eating, talking, laughing and loving each other. But now I feel disgusted.

-Eat.

He said with his soft voice. 

 I snapped one small bite from the sandwich.

-Good, that's my girl.

Am I now his girl? I feel good, but I can't eat. I'll gain weight.

After I ate the sandwich I went to one of the school's bathrooms. I put two of my fingers down my throat. All the food I ate, now was gone. Why I didn't do this in the begging. It's easier than the stupid lie I'm saying all the time. Soon I'll get into the 35 kilos and then to 30 kilos. 

I'll be so perfect!

Alec's P.O.V.

It's been a fucking damn week since I made her eat, but I think that she lost even more weight than she used to do before. I can't! I was walking down a small dark street. I saw a big container. I made two highways and itched them by my nostrils. Then I went to a secret spot where I was meeting with my new friends. Every night we were smoking weed.

Monika's P.O.V.

-34 kilos!? - yelled my mother. 

-How's that possible!? You eat a lot! Why are you losing weight instead of gaining!?

She slapped me really hard. Tears forming in my eyes, but I'm holding them back. 

-Love, don't hit her..

My dad tried to calm her, but instead of that she slapped me again.

-Tell me what are you doing! Why are you losing weight when you're eating enough to gain!? Tell me! Now!

She didn't stopped yelling at me. I've never seen her like this...