i love you in a silent way

A Letter to Jake

November 10, 2014

Dearest EX,

Just as a chapter of my so-called "Book of Life" has been closed by its Creator, so as this story of us had come up to its beautiful end. Every thing that happened to my life which you have been part, I will surely treasure. Since oblivion is inevitable and it is one of your fears, I will assure you that I'll never forget "Jake" being part of my life. I did my best for us. I did my very best to help you in all aspect of your life. I did my best to make you happy. I did my best to make it last. But I fall short. I'm very sorry for whatever kind of pain I caused in your life. 

It's supposed to be our 1000th day today. Yet you have given up. When you have time, I wish you can re-read those posts of yours in your very own FB and all those messages of ours that you still saved there in your phone. Even just a skim of it. Wayback year 2012 & 2013. For you to remember what we had and realized what you've given up. I want you to realized it, not for you to be back in to my arms. But for you to treasure the one you are with today since you have given up "everything about us" just for her. It's the very first time you gave up. Yes it was very painful, but I'm getting over it. I hope I can. I'm even praying for your sake after it happened. Just so you know. I still do care about you and I'm not bitter about what happened. I just have one last favor. "Don't do it again to others." You know that A is a great girl. I do even salute her. But she's an inosent girl, Jake. Do not hurt her the way you do it to me and your other pasts as well. Yes you do love her. I have felt it even before "we" are gone. But don't flirt with other girls if you're now dealing with A. She doesn't deserve to be hurt. Don't go back to the old you. That one (your so-called "other side") isn't supposed to be you now. Stay healthy and happy. I might be loving you in a silent way but maybe one day, it'll be gone. We don't know what tomorrow brings.

If you're the will of God, you will really be. If not, it will not be. Either of it, I'll be glad. But one day, I wanna see you serving the Lord sincerely .

Your EX-Girlfriend who loves you in a silent way,

Sweetselle