Behind the mask

27) Scars

Emily
!!Slight Triggers warning!!

I was sitting at the dining table silently poking my food. I can bring myself to eat, I hardly ever can. "How was school, honey?" I looked at her and shrugged. "It was good. Last week some people danced and the school went mad." She smiled and she looked at my full plate.

"Honey? You not hungry? You haven't touched your food." I gave her a reassuring smile, even if It didn't reassure me. "I'm just full mom. I had a lot to eat around Dani's and Daniel house." She gave me a sly smile. "You have been spending a long time with Dani's brother. He's quite the handsome young man." I rubbed my arm and smiled slightly.

"He's nice. Hey mom, I'm just gonna go to sleep." She stood up and grabbed the plates. "Okay, honey. Love ya." She kissed my head. I went upstairs and sat on my bed. I grabbed a bottle of water and quickly drank it in one. When I was done I sighed.

I heard my phone buzz and I picked it up and saw it was our group chat.

I smiled and let out a small giggle at the chat. Dani lived for a good meme and we all knew it.

I flopped on the bed and felt my stomach growl painfully. I drank some more water and I sighed.

I know I should eat but I can't bring myself too. I thought about food and calories all the time. I tried to avoid foods containing lots of fat or carbohydrates and only had 'safe' foods which I felt were okay to eat.
I had a 'voice' in my head that shouted at me. It told me I was fat and worthless and that I was not allowed to eat because I did not deserve food. I thought I was in control of my eating but it got harder and harder to ignore the voice.

As I lost weight I began to feel tired and this made me more depressed. I couldn't think straight or concentrate at school. All I could think about was food because my brain and body was craving for it. I realise now I was suffering from the effects of starvation. But it didn't stop.

"Honey!"

I jumped as I was snapped out of my daze. "Your friends are here! Danielle, Daniel and Tyrone!" I fell off my bed in shock and stumble up and ran to the front door. "W-What are you doing?" I mumbled, shocked they just showed up. "We came to make sure you were okay." Daniel said and Dani nodded.

"I'm fine." I mumbled. Tyrone smiled and we all walked upstairs and sat in a a circle. "So what was up?" Daniel said looking at me. He was smiling and got a little embarrassed. He was very handsome. He had the same eyes as Dani. Piercing blue eyes.

I rubbed my arm and sighed. "I just didn't feel well. But I'll be fine when we got swimming." I said smiling slightly. Daniel and Ty cheered and Dani looked at me. "Hey, if you need to talk just tell me. Your my best friend and you can tell me anything." I hugged her and she smiled.

I wish that was true... I could never tell her about my eating disorder... She'd hate me...

Time skip

It was dark now, about 3:30 at night. My friends stayed because it got to late and we were sleeping on the floor. We were on mattresses in the shape of a cross and everyone was sleeping, apart from me. I really couldn't sleep.

Ty was snoring slightly, it wasn't a loud annoying snore but more of a quiet boy snore. Dani was near me and quietly sleeping. She looked pretty even in her sleep, she was my best friend but I was envious of her good looks and feminine figure. She was kind to me... I never really understood it to be honest. I was ugly and pathetic, and this scar on my eye.

I hated it.

(Btw her scar is on the right eye and it fairly huge.)

I hid it with my long brown hair but even then you could see it. I got it in a crash. My dad was drunk and I was 5. We crashed and I got my scar, I nearly went blind. He died. My mom wasn't devastated but he was horrible. Two years ago she met my stepdad, he's lovely and I call him dad.

I turned to see Daniel. My face went red as I saw him looking at me. "Hi." He said grinning. My cheeks were burning and I nodded. "What's up?" He said getting closer. "I-i was just thinking about my scar... And the accident." He nodded and I turned to lay on my stomach. "I've heard the kids at school. They say it's horrible but I bet it's not." He said smiling, he turned from his side and laid on his stomach.

I got embarrassed and my eyes started to water. "It make me look like a monster... It's huge. It scared the other kids for years. They'd call me names, hit me and bully me." He nodded and listened closely. "The boys used to draw fake scars on their faces and pretend to be monsters like me. I was always alone but then Dani wanted to be my friend... She's my best friend but I think she pity's me." Daniel laughed slightly.

"She doesn't pity you. She's not the type of person to pity friend someone. She had a hard time making friends because of our parents. So she related to you. She's just that type of person." He said smiling. "She too nice to me..." Daniel smiled and gave me a look. "I know this is probably out of order but... Would I be able to see your scar."

I rubbed my arm and sighed. "If I do, please don't laugh or make fun of me." He shook his head. "I wouldn't do that to you." He said smiling kindly. I let out a shaky breath and moved my hair. He kept a straight face as he saw my scar. He just looked at it for a few minutes and I started to panic.

"Sorry. It's horribl-" He kissed me on the scar and I yelped in shock. I shot back and he smiled at me. "I think it's cool. Don't let them get you down. In my opinion your prettier than all the girls at our school, even with the scar." I got embarrassed as he smirked. "D-don't you have a girlfriend?" I mumbled quietly. "I dumped her a month ago." I tilted my head. "Why's that?" He grinned embarrassed and smiled.

"Because I like you."

HIIIIII!!!!

I hope you have enjoyed this chapter and are enjoying your night or day!!!!! Plz feel free to leave your thoughts on this chapter!!!!
My babies!!! I love them so much!! 😂

BYEEEEEEEE my beautiful readers!!!!!! 💙💚