The Pain Hidden Behind the Smile: NaLu

part 1: Lucy hides her pain

Chapter 1: Lucy Hides Her Pain

Hey guys! First fan fic!!! So excited ^-^ dont be mad if it sucks!!! Warning there is abuse, sexual content and foul language continue at your own risk XD

Lucy's pov:

I woke up this morning to the pain of yesterday. I felt the bruises and cuts scattered all over my body. I attempted to ignore the pain and to get up out of my makeshift bed on the floor. It took some time but I managed. I'm not gonna let it keep me from seeing my friends and from going to school. I went to my closet to grab my clothes and stripped. Once I had finished getting dressed I was in my usual long black pants (no holes), long sleeve black v neck shirt, and combat boots. (Yes I like black but I'm not goth) there now I just need to do makeup and hair so that no one can see the bruises. I straightened my blonde hair and applied some mascara, filled in my eyebrows and put on some dark purple lipstick. I ran downstairs silently so he wouldn't hear me. He being my awful excuse for a father, Jude Heartfilia. I closed the door and sprinted to Levy's, afraid he would wake up and chase after me. Your becoming paranoid I thought to myself. When I got there she came out and lead me to the car.

~time skip to school~

When I got to school I greeted my friends Erza, Gray, Gajeel, Juvia, Wendy, Romeo, and last but not least Natsu. They all smiled at me and we started to talk. But as always I was kinda off to the side like the weird little wallflower that i am. I've been this way since I was about 14 so a year ago when my mother died and my father began to beat me.

~Time skip lunch hour~

At lunch my friends met by the Sakura tree (like always) and started to chat. I kept getting weird looks from them. I wonder why.

"Hey guys what are you looking at?" I questioned softly.

"You just look really pale and distant. Are you okay Luce?" Gray was the one to ask

I was a little startled by this. "Yeah I'm fine. I'm gonna go to the bathroom. I'll be back in a couple of minutes." I said with my signature fake smile they all bought it. Well at least I think they did. They all went to talking but Natsu kept staring at me. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and began twirling it in my hands.

When I got to the bathroom I sat on the toilet and cried from the pain of the bruises and the memories of last night. With that I pulled the case off of my phone and grabbed my blade. I brought it to my wrist and started pushing it on my skin. Today I did deep ones compare to what I normally do. After I had finished I grabbed a whole bunch of paper towels and stuffed them on my arm as it continued to bleed. I walked outside hugging my arm. My friends smiled at me and went back to their conversation. No one noticed anything. Just as they shouldn't.

~last period of the day!~

I was in my last class where I sat next to Juvia. Trigonometry. I was starting to feel a bit woozy when I asked Mr Gildarts to go to the restroom. When I got there I looked down at my arm to see it still bleeding. No wonder I was woozy. I got new paper towels only to find them gone shit! Ok fine I go back to class with nothing under my sleeve. Please don't stick to my jacket arm or show any blood.

When I got back to class I sat there quietly awaiting the bell to ring. Me and Juvia went to the gate to meet our friends.

"Are you okay Lucy? You're looking very pale." Juvia asked me with concern.

"Yeah I'm fine." I said in a more faint voice then usual.

I was waiting for Levy to finish talking so we could go home. Why is Natsu still looking at me? I don't know. I look away slightly blushing. Wait ,why am I blushing!? Finally as Levy finishes with her conversation we go to the car only for me to fall wincing.

"Are you okay Lucy!?" They all asked me. I attempted to get up but for a moment, I couldn't. Damn I'm pathetic.

"Im fine, really just a klutz ya know?" Fuck they don't believe me. Stand up Lucy! Stand up! I stood up and smiled when really my whole body was screaming with pain.

"We have to go Levy. I can't be late." Everyone stared at me for a moment but then they shrugged it off. Levy started the car and dropped me off. When I went Inside I heard my father, Jude, coming over here... shit! Please don't hurt me dad! I kept thinking over and over. He came over with his belt off. He grabbed me by my wrist (which he knew I hurt myself on) and turned me around. I got one last glimpse at the belt befo- wait, that isn't a belt! That's a whip! I started to cry as he ripped my jacket off and he pulled my shirt off so it would hurt more. Finally I was in just my jeans and bra. When he pulled back and hit me with it as hard as he could. I wanted to fall but I wouldn't. I wouldn't let him know I was hurting just to bring him happiness! He kept hitting me harder and harder. Saying I deserved this. When he finished I probably had lost a lot of blood and he noticed but he didn't seem to care in the least. He kicked me as hard as he could in the ribs making me lose my breath. I cried out just a tiny bit. And he found pleasure in this and kept kicking my ribs. I heard cracks several times. He finally stopped. And covered me up and he ripped my shirt up and held my jacket he threw me in the car putting his best "I'm worried for my daughter look" and took me to the hospital muttering his fake story. Something about a gang and him saving my ass. That's when everything got fuzzy and i passed out from the pain and blood loss. No one knew my secrets about the cuts and the beatings except my dad...

Hey babes! Lol how did ya like my frist chapter? I know it probably sucked but I felt like it had a good start dont you? Well anyhoo thanks for reading it! ^-^ comment how you felt and what you think I should add! Love ya baes! (Bitches always eating XD) this story is based off of characters from fairy tail.

So I'm going through and editing and this is such a cringe story. I wanted to cry reading this it was so bad but now it's slightly better. Anywhore I hope you like the edit better and please don't hate past me's whorrible grammar (yes I did the whorrible thing on purpose). Comment what you think. Vote and share. Love you guys. Be safe and stay strong <3

I EDITED IT AGAIN AND CAN I SAY 13 YEAR OLD ME WAS EVIL! I started this when I was 13 almost 14. 2 years later and hot damn. This is fucked up. But now it is semi better. Ill be editing this (for real) and hopefully making it slightly better than what it was.