Forgiveness? - TomTord (Depressed Tord x Tom)

* Chapter 4 *

(My friend helped me with a bit of this, so I'd like to thank her for that)

Tord POV

I woke up to the sunlight blinding me. I felt like my head was pounding. I had another nightmare when I fell asleep. This time Pau and Pat abandoned me and left me to die. I sat up on my bed, trying to ignore any pain I felt. I was successful. I heard someone knock on my door and someone say,

"Tord? Are you awake?"

"Yeah, come in," I answer.

The door opened to reveal Pat, who walked in. He came up to me and hugged me.

"Are you ok, Tord?"

"Umm, I'm good. Why?" I ask, kinda confused.

"Well, you weren't doing so good late night. I just wanna make sure you were alright. By the way, Tord, did you get anymore night terrors?" Pat asked, slightly concerned.

The memory of Pat comforting me back to sleep flashed across my mind.

Of course he would be concerned about that.

"I...I did, but it is not of your concern."

"Tord, I just wanna make sure you're ok-"

"I'm fine. You don't need to worry about me all the time. So please stop smothering me with attention. I don't deserve it!" I snapped.

Once I heard Pat gasp, I realized my mistake of saying what I just said.

"U-uhh Pat just forget what you just heard ok?"

"Forget? Forget!? Tord, I can't just forget what you just said. Is that what you think Tord? Do you think that you don't deserve love and care?" Pat asked, heartbroken.

"I-I...."

"Well, What is it!?"

I couldn't think of an excuse to make him forget about what I said so I just said,

"Yes, it's true."

I couldn't look Pat in the face after saying that. I just didn't want to see how heartbroken he was. I heard sniffles and then Pat said,

"I... I'll go make you some breakfast. Please don't think like that Tord, cause me and Pau care deeply about you."

I heard shuffling and then my room door closing. I couldn't help but feel guilt. I should've kept that to myself, I'm such a fool.

A few minutes past by and Pat came back, followed by Pau. He was the first to speak up.

"What did you do to make Pat cry!? What did he ever do to you?"

I guess Pat didn't tell him. Figures, he wouldn't want to make anyone feel heartbroken as well from what I just said.

Pat put a hand up to Pau as a way of shushing him. I could tell he was angry at what he said. He turned back to me, handing me a plate with bacon and pancakes.

"You must be hungry right?"

I was super hungry. My face brightened up.

"Thanks Mom."

I was about to start eating, when this 'voice' stopped me.

Do you really think you deserve to even eat? After all that pain you caused to your friends?

I... I didn't mean to do it though.

But you did it, didn't you? You were the one who destroyed their house.