Swinging

Oneshot

Everyday was the same. Well, sort of. Zed and Addison had been together since they were fifteen. High school sweethearts. A picturesque perfect (for lack of a better word) couple.

And they were happy together. They had the perfect wedding just after graduating college. Zed had a great job that provided for them, to the point Addison didn't have to work if she didn't want to. But she did anyways so she wouldn't be cooped up in the house all day by herself.

At least until they had a baby. Addy just wasn't quite ready for that yet, which Zed never pushed even though he really wanted kids. And she was beyond grateful for his understanding on that front. But there was one thing that had been half, kinda sorta, bothering her.

They learned the ins and outs of sex together. They were, both of their, one and only partners they've ever had. What if they missed something from lack of experience? What if there was more out there that they were missing? The 'what if's that seemed to plague her mind lately.

This day, in particular, Zed noticed the decline in her mood. They sat eating her favorite meal, spaghetti and meatballs. He kept seeing the way she leaned on her elbow against the table, or the way she twirled the noodles around her fork excessively, or the quiet sighs when she got deep in thought. He swallowed his bite and reached over, taking her hand in his that rested on the table, earning a little jump from his wife since she was completely zoned out.

"You ok Adds?" He asked in concern. He saw the way her eyes widen before she plasters the fakest smile on her face he's ever seen out of her.

"Oh! Yeah! I'm totally fine! Nothing wrong at all!" She lies with a nervous laugh. He frowned and her smiled dropped with another sigh when she realized her coverup wasn't working. "I'm sorry Zed. I am ok though. Promise. Just... thinking." She admitted hesitantly.

His brows knit together in worry. Addison wasn't usually the type to keep secrets from him. It had to be serious if she was so distracted over it.

"Wanna talk about it? You know I'm here if you need me to listen." He offered supportively. She wanted so desperately to get this off her chest, but would it ruin them? Would their love crumble under her uncertainty?

She searched his features for something. That something that told her he would never judge her. Never leave her. Love her unconditionally. And of course it was written all over his face. She softens with a small sincere smile that relaxes him, only slightly.

"It's just, we've been together for like, ever!" The way his eyes go wide and what little color he had in his face drains tells her he's already taking this the worst way possible. "No no! I'm so not going anywhere!" She says, putting her free hand over their still connected ones. He sighs heavily in relief.

"What is it then? Of course we've been together forever! I've loved you since freshman year!" He teased. She giggles softly then rubs her thumb over his knuckles as she continues to debate even saying anything. "You can tell me anything Addy. We've been through so much already. Nothing can break us." He tells her gently.

So she takes a deep breath.

"Have you ever wondered, what it'd be like to sleep with someone else?" She just asked in a small voice. Zed's hand slid out of hers as he fell back into his chair.

"Di-did you cheat on me?" He questions with all the evidence of hurt clear just in his voice.

"Baby no! I'd never-" she cut herself off because she knew how bad all this sounded, so of course he'd think she was cheating. "I'd never go outside of our relationship for pleasure, without your permission." She added.

His head tilts in curiosity but his face still shows his cynical hesitation. He was scared. She sounded unsure of their relationship. What if she left him for someone else?!