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Homophobia

Warning

This chapter contains the following:
Intense Swearing
LGBT
Homophobia

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"Hey," Mara says as she walks into the kitchen.

"Sup asshole," I say not looking up.

"Oh, so I'm the asshole now?" She says with her hands on her hips.

"Yes you are, you fucking homophobe," I say looking at her.

She had just recently cut off everything with her best friend because she came out to her as a lesbian, and had confessed that she had liked Mara for a few years now. I hated the fact that she did that. It pissed me off and I went home early because I'm still closeted, and if my own sister can't accept her best friend (that she's known longer than me), that tells me she probably won't accept me. I had found out I was Pansexual almost 2 years ago, and I haven't come out to anyone other than my best friend Kali.

"I'm not a fucking homophobe!"

"Then what was that stunt you pulled in the cafeteria earlier, huh? Ally came out to you specifically! She didn't need you to announce to the entire 7th through 12th-grade classes that your a homophobe and you don't accept her! You could have just told her that you were fucking straight!" I practically scream, slamming my hands on the table. By this point, I was standing straight up and had completely forgotten about my chemistry homework I had been working on moments ago.

"I did not tell everyone I was a homophobe for the last time Amya! I just fucking rejected her! Very loudly and maybe a little rudely... But I still did not say that I was a homophobe!" She spits. She was right. She had never actually said that she was a homophobe, but with what's happening today I seriously doubt that she isn't.

"Hey, smart shit. YOU COULD HAVE TOLD HER THAT YOU WERE STRAIGHT!" I actually scream this time.

"You don't even talk to her that much! Why do you care so god damn much, that you're to the point your fucking screaming in my face!"

"Because I'm Pansexual!" I yell without thinking, I slam my hands on the table again. Shit... may as well tell her everything... "You know my 'boyfriend' I refer to as K?" I put finger quotations around the word 'boyfriend'. "Well their first name is Katherine and they're non-binary. That is why I'm so fucking pissed about this! Because if you can't even accept your best friend, then how the fuck are you going to accept me? And don't you DARE tell me it's just a fucking phase because I know it's not. I've known I was Pan for two years now, and a little FYI, I've known about Ally for months now I just never told you because I knew she wouldn't want you to know, just yet." My hands slowly retreat to my sides. "I wish she hadn't come out to you now because you are homophobic, you might not have said it out loud but you don't need to now, because everyone knows you are!" I say storming out of the kitchen. I speed walk up the stairs and walk into my room slamming the door open.

"Amya-" she yells from downstairs, but I don't hear the rest of her sentence as I slam my door shut. I kick my shoes off beside my door and flop onto my bed. I hide under my pillows and blankets hoping to wake up from a horrible dream. But I don't. I can't believe I just came out to my sister. MY HOMOPHOBIC SISTER. I just want to curl up and die.

I hear a soft knock on the door. "What the hell do you want!" I yell, my voice slightly muffled.

"To talk" I hear Mara call from the other side.

"Whatever, come in"

"How?" She asks softly, rolling my chair from my desk and sitting down.

"What do you mean 'how'? I left a lot of questions to be answered back there." I say burying myself further into my blankets.

"How did you know?"

"About me being Pan or about Ally?"

"Both"

"First off, people call it gaydar," I say "And second off, I knew I was Pan when I realized I was attracted to a female in my class. She and I began talking to each other and it turned out they were non-binary and lesbian," I say peaking out of a small eyehole I made.

"Gaydar?" she says giving me a very questioning look.

"It's something gay people have. It's how we find our kind" I say.

"Ok, so I'll admit it. I might... have... gone a little overboard with Ally" she says looking down.

I poke my head out so that she could see my head and part of my neck. "1 out of 10 people that claim that they are straight are actually gay"

"So your saying I might be gay, and I'm just denying it? And is that actual math?"

"No, I'm not saying any of that, but it is possible" I say as I hide back under my covers. I ignore the second question because frankly I don't want to talk to her right now. "Now go the hell away, I'm still pissed"

"Amya-" she starts.

"Go" I cut her off.

She slowly stands up. She rolls the chair back under my desk, and walks to my door, stopping in my doorframe. "I'm sorry, and thank you"

"For what?"

"I'm sorry for everything I said, and I will make it up to Ally tomorrow. And thank you for telling me about your sexually. I'll have you know... that I do actually accept you..."

"Well you know I hate apologies, but it's fine. And thank you for that" I say poking part of my face out. "Now please leave"

"Ok. Love you, little sis." Mara says turning around and walking out.

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Note:
Yesss this story turned out fucking amazing! There is a lot of swearing and homophobia. I would apologize but Amya has a trait that I do. I hate apologies. But I rated this story Mature mainly because there is intense swearing. But after 1056 words my first complete short story is finished! If you liked it please tell me by voting, commenting, and sharing it!

Tank y'all!