Memories haunting me
all these songs
that have the most bitersweet memories
of me sitting in my old room
in my old house
as sun streamed through the window
and I sang the lyrics
It hurts so bad as I remember those days
my God.
Its hurts.
I just hate this. Theres nothing I can do.
I can't go back in time and make all if this not happen.
Everything sucks.
It's so hard.
Everyday I'm reminded of things that bring me back.
Everyday I remember those days in my old house
and it fucking hurts.
God it just hurts.
I just...
gah.
My heart feels like it has been ripped to pieces and cannot be put back together
and the worst part is I will never
ever
ever
be in thet room again
I will never
ever
ever
be in that pasture again.
And God,
I will
never
ever
ever
ever
see those dogs again.
They didn't deserve this.
I can just imagine what they thought.
One day they were living a happy like on 27 acres of land
running wild
having fun
being puppies
like puppies should
and then
the next thing they know
they're thrown in a car
and put in cages
far away
from the people who loved them
so confused as they see my crying face, leaving the shelter.
That was it.
Then they died, having no clue
how much I loved them
and how much it hurt me.
I can only imagine.
I just hurt.
It all hurts.
But I know that one day in my furture,
it will be ok.
I'll be making music.
I'll be happy,
Maybe one day,
I'll get to meet Black Veil Brides
or
Juliet Simms
or one of my other inspirations
