Somedays I just feel completely and utterly
done
with
life
and
myself
and
everything
around me
and my dreams
and everything and i just want to
slip
into a sleep
where I never awake
because I get my hopes up
just for them to be crushed.
and now, even though this had nothing to be with being a musician
now
just the simplist thing
brings me to it.
ill never be a musician
so i should stop dreaming about it.
i should just sell my shitty guitar
(for what its worth)
and give the money to mom for
ciggarettes
and sell my art and stop buying bandmerch
and stop asking for things
and stop
doing artwork
and writting
bc it's a waste of money.
and besides
with so many people
that have so much talent
and know how to play guiatr
and hit high notes and low notes
and know wtf an alto or wtf ever that is is,
and are like..11 years old
that want to go into the music indisutry
(and will)
what chance do i stand?
i have an ok voice
and thats all.
and my writitng
have been written thousands of times before,
and ,my art> drawn a million times before.
my mom was right that one night,
there is nothing unique about me.
