on call...
Jho: Beatriz nasaan ka na ba? Kanina ka pa hinahanap ni Trace!
Bea: sorry, sorry. Pabalik na ako. I'll be there by 30 minutes. Thanks jho.
Jho: sinasabi ko sayo Bea ha. Kung hinahanap mo na naman yung lalaking yon, please lang hindi sya worth ng time mo. Mas kailangan ka ni Trace.
Bea: I know. I know.
I sighed deeply and ended the call. I think Jho is right. Wala akong mapapala kung hahanapin ko ang ama ni Trace. Kung gusto nito magpakita, matagal na sana ito nagparamdam.
Hindi pa man ako nakakapark ng kotse ay may nakita ba agad akong hindi kaaya aya
"andito na naman sila"
Jho: Tagal mo. Trace is looking for you kanina pa. Ayaw-
Bea: What happened? Bakit nandito na naman sila?
Jho: Naglilinis ako sa kusina nang may narinig akong parang nalaglag. Chineck ko agad si Trace at nakitang nasa sahig na ito, dumudugo ang ilong. Tinawagan ko agad sila. Bei-
I left Jho in the living room and went directly to Trace's room. Ayoko na lang sagutin si Jho. Baka kung hinayaan ko pa syang umimik, sa kanya ko maibunton ang galit ang inis ang pagod. Hindi nya kasalanan. Oo bea, kasi ikaw ang may kasalanan.
"Trace, Bei bei is here. Wake up na little one" hinimas nya ang braso ng bata at niyapos ito upang gisingin. Pero siguro dahil sa pagod, hindi man lang nagising si Trace.
"Bea, Trace is-"
"Yeah. I already know. You don't have to explain. Paulit ulit lang naman. Just give me the list and I can handle it." pagputol ko sa nais nyang sabihin.
"Bea, makinig ka naman."
"Bea, they know better." singit ni Jho.
Yeah whatever
I closed Trace's door and lay beside her. I silently cried and caressed her face. She looks like an angel, so pure and so innocent.
"Trace, you're my sunshine. I hope they won't take you away from me. I love you so dear. I don't know what life will be if you ever leave me." I whispered thinking she will hear me.
I was awaken by Trace's chuckles and tickles. She do this everytime I sleep beside her to wake me up. I fished for my phone and saw that it's 6am already. I planted kisses around her face and stood up to make breakfast for her.
"Good morning little one. Another day, another blessing." i told her and pattted her head.
"mowning bei bei lab lab" my heart melted as I saw her smile. she's that cute!! I can't get enough of this girl. Lord, please keep her beside me until i'm old.
"what do you want to do today?" I asked her as I fixed myself. Today is my free day and I want to spend it with Trace. I know that every second counts. I'm just scared of her losing her. I've lost enough. I don't want Trace to be the next. And with that on my mind, nafifeel ko na naman na ang malas ko sa buhay ng iba. Kasi sa tuwing mapapalapit sila sa akin, may nangyayaring masama. Kaya minsan hindi na lang ako nakikihalobilo. Kasi nakatatak na sa akin na mawawala rin naman sila, why invest friendship?
"Bei bei, I want walk park. Ice cream bei bei" Trace is just 3 years old but she can somehow complete a sentence structure.
"Okay let's go after breakfast."
"Will Lulu come?" I stopped combing my hair and look at her. I realized I haven't talk to Jho yet.
"I don't know Trace. Maybe Lulu is busy. Ahm, wait me here okay? I'll prepare our breakfast na so we can go to the park agad, hmm?" she nodded her head and waved her hand.
