Seungjin// don't judge a book by its cover

Chapter 13

The two boys rushed to get out of the car and into the house as it was already 3:15. But when they returned to the house all the boys were standing outside the rest of the original stray gang in horror. I had a sick feeling in my stomach I could tell changbin did too. We got closer to see everyone standing around flowers with a box and a note on the door. We moved past them to grab the note. It read

Dear jinnie babyy ,
I know you didn't want the money but I feel horrible not giving it to you. I hope you can except it it was great seeing your beautiful face today. Xoxo
-Johnny
P.s I hope you like the flowers there your favorite.

I dropped the note almost as fast as I read it now I know why the original stray gang looked like that. "Okay wtf is this who the fuck is Johnny why tf is he calling you baby or he knows your favorite flowers. What the hell is in the box and wtf did he give you money for." Seungmin fumed with jealousy. "I uhh I um a little help Jj" changbin stuttered trying to figure out what to do.

I ignored them and continued to the box picked it and the flowers up opened the door ignoring the questions and sat in the living room. Everyone piled in sitting around while I opened the box waiting for answers. I cut it open throwing my gun on the table not caring about it knowing I'll have to fess up soon anyway. I cut the box open throwing out Thousands of stacks of 100 dollar bills on the table just feeling everyone grow more confused. I finally got to the bottom of the box to see the ring he got me on our 1 year anniversary. Still on the gold chain I left it on before I threw it off the top a building the second to last time I saw him. I picked it up with another note. "Read it out loud?" I asked everyone. "YES" everyone screamed with confusion wanting answers already.

Dear princess,
I know you throw this thinking it would be that last time you ever saw me I want you to have it back and please wear it. It looked so good hanging from your sexy ass neck. I love you come back to me.
-Johnny
P.s I'll be wearing what You first met me in tmr at school. Sleep well.

I finished reading. I pissed off I stood up and went out the door everyone following me. I turned to changbin toke the gun out of the latch and through the necklace on the ground shooting it about 7 times. "Jinnie calm down let's talk please" seungmin tried to pulled me back in. I stayed glued to my spot starring at it. I went back to the car and got another clip but before I could shoot it I was grabbed by lee know and slapped hard in my face. "Aye snap out of it hyunjin he won't come near you again if any of us have to say about it. I will kill him myself you know that but don't do this. I don't want to have to take you back to the insane ward at the hospital but I will. You are strong and I'll be damned if this bastard thinks he can screw you up again. And if you so much as think your going to talk to him I'll put two holes back in your body just like he did. It's harsh but I don't care look at yourself emptying a clip on a ring that's how crazy he makes you. Now give me the gun come inside so we can talk." He finished. Everyone scared and confused. "Come in Jinnie please" I.n comes over slowly removing the gun from my hand.

I slowly walk inside everyone crowded around to hear the story. "I guess I'll start from the beginning, when we're we're strictly gang business we worked for a man named Johnny he was only a bit older then us but he inherited his fathers business so we weren't gonna complain. He paid good as you can clearly see *i motioned to the money on the table* we slowly came above ranks because of how well we all did the job. One day I was called into his office I guess you could say I always had a crush on him but nothing too serious. Anyways I came in and sat as I usually do. We talked business as I was head of our group when I was about to leave he stepped in front of the door and asked if I would consider going out with him. Little did I know it would be the second worse choice I've ever made. I agreed of course and everything was good the first year I would talk about him to the gang all the time they all agreed I seemed so happy. He never knew about my father and would always yell at me when I'd have to go home and wouldnt stay for .. his sexual intentions but I never spoke about it and would leave we got into the nastiest fights but he'd always come apologize and make up for it. Until about a year in after he gave me the ring on that chain. He started abusing me sexually and forcing himself when he felt like it. He would get annoyed with me rather fast and would cheat on me Often when I left to deal with my dad. About the second year I grew sick of everything. I threw the necklace off as he said with the rest of stray gang after I told them everything. I became very depressed and tried my hardest to be happy but I felt a hole everytime I tried to work up the courage to break up with him until finally I knew I had too. I was drained all the time. We met as business partners in his 2nd home. I broke off all ties business wise and it was coming to the break up part when 21 men stormed into his home looking to kill us both. When they found us hiding he pleaded for them to kill me and keep him alive. They thought it was a trick so they handed him a gun and forced him to shoot me twice. Once in the shoulder and once in the stomach. He looked almost as he didn't care. I told him if he pulled that trigger he'd prove me right and I'd never forgive him. He shot me anyway and they pulled him out of the house leaving me to die. They gang found me and rushed me to the hospital. After 3 surgeries they wanted to keep me for observation. I ended up finding out he escaped them and was doing well back into his business. It's almost like I had a psychiatric break and went insane in the head from all the trama. I attacked 2 nurses and even went after I.n with a needle all because he wanted to hug me goodbye and I wasn't ready to be touched yet. Witch I still to this day feel horrible over. Lee and changbin had enough and admitted me to the psychiatric ward at the hospital for 2 months when they deemed me sane and okay I was allowed to return home. I came back home to see all this items removed form my room at home and to see his warehouses for sale as if he picked up and vanished. I still in a depressive state cut myself and tried to kill myself twice. That leads me to today. Me and changbin were making a deal. Drug deal" I want to continue but was interrupted.

"I thought we agreed you guys would stop doing all of that." Felix frowned in changbins direction. "You guys said you'd stop I thought we were all your family now." Woojin commented. All of the stray gang looked down in guilt. "I know it seems bad but you guys have to realize that we love you but we don't completely trust you. We don't trust anyone it's how we grew up. Please understand" jisung pleaded. "Well forgive you but if it causes problems like this please tell us at least." Chan said. "Continue the story hyunjin." Seungmin coldly let out calling me by my name. Everyone felt tention including me. But I continued anyway.

"Well when we picked up the goods and were In the process of dropping them off guns were pressed to our windows telling us step out. Obviously we kept our guns with us. When we stepped out I saw him I put a gun to his head. I asked him why I shouldn't shoot him and he said because I still love him. He said he changed he's coming to our school and said he'd win me back somehow. He asked me if seungmin makes me feel how he did and asked if he made me lust for him like he did. I-" I was interrupted by seungmin "and do I." He said harshly again. " first off don't ever ask him to compare you to him it's-" I stopped lee know from stepping in. "No you don't. I don't lust for you I love you but obviously you feel some type of way about it. I told you what you'd get with me. You said you'd stay to help rather then leave. This is our life. All of us you think lee knows never been hurt he's been stabbed in the back literally. I n hell you saw his scar. Changbin has been kidnapped for money 3 times. And jisung has been jumped by 8 people over a coding device. That's our life seungmin and if you can't handle it well leave" I said getting angrier at the end.

"Well then maybe you should" he spat covering his mouth right after. I stood up calmly and quietly remaining calm as I've practiced. "Okay I'll be gone in the next our all in favor of joining me." I spat. All of original stray gang raised there hand. "Felix your welcome to come but only because of changbin. But if you agree with your bestie don't even bother." I said knowing it would be hard for my bestfriend if he had to leave him behind. He agreed very disappointed in his friends behavior. "Everyone get your shit cause I'll be done in 10 minutes." I said angerly walking upstairs trying to remain calm.

"You know that's the calmest I've seen hyunjin in a long time the breathing exercises are helping him." Changbin turned to seungmin "your lucky I don't shoot you. You have constantly put us on levels and you know what fuck you. Your mad because hyunjin had a past well we dug in to yours and don't think we don't know about lisa. She dumped you for no reason at all and you've practically done that to him. I hope you wake up and realize we're all the same. Except some of us had to scratch and claw our way to happiness. You'd think when your boyfriend said he almost killed himself twice you'd help instead of letting jealousy fuel you. Your very lucky because if you were anyone else hyunjin would have put you in a hospital for the way you just spoke to him. Have a good one seungmin I hope it was worth it". He finished.

"I'll be in the car" I said bringing all my packed up clothes into the mud room opening the door. I stoped and let one tear roll down my cheek. I came to where seungmin was sitting and put the necklace on the table and said "never thought I'd do this again. Thank you for all you've done for me. But remember I never needed you or anyone else." And walked out.

Everyone got into the car we drove off to our old hang out place. Not to far from where we practice stray style. Changbin grabbed my hand as we walked in. "Screw him you don't need him." He tired to cheer me up. Another tear went down as I let go of his hand ignored him and walked in the house.

"You think he'll come back from this one ?" I.n asked worried to everyone who watched the seen unfold. "To be honest I hope so take his gun and stuff and hide it lee know his anger stayed low today for some reason but I don't want someone to make him snap and end up dead." Changbin asked. "Will do. In the mean time what the hell are we gonna do we have school tomorrow" Minho asked. "We're all gonna go including hyunjin I won't leave him alone that poor boys had more trama then anyone should in a life time we can't leave him to his thoughts or we'll lose him too." Changbin said. Everyone nodded and unpacked there bags.

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