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A/N its been a while, and I realize I've been working on this book for over a year so damn!!! Thank you for the love!!!

Steve made me stay behind, while everyone else goes to some random, planet I forgot the name of, to get the stones.

He stated that I wasn't old enough to go to space and I should stay on earth incase something goes wrong.

I wanted to argue that Peter got to go to space but even just thinking of him hurts me.

Pepper had gone to bed a little while after dinner, she insisted on staying up with me but I told her to go to bed.

My body makes its way to the giant window that was in the compounds living room and I sit down to look at the stars, my eyes water thinking that I never got the chance to say goodbye to Peter, and my heart felt empty knowing he is gone.

My eyes just continue looking up at the stars, and I remember one date Peter and I went on, not to long ago.

Six Months Ago

"Peter you nerd!" I scream at my boyfriend shoving him lightly. Peter laughs and places the blanket he had in his hands on the Roof of the compound.

We both lye down and look up at the stars. "What was it like?" Peter asks me quietly.

"What like?" I ask him confused. My head rests on his chest and he runs his fingers through my hair.

"Finding out we aren't the only ones on this planet?" I take a deep breath of air and try to remember. I was eleven when my father explained to me the whole Thor is a god thing.

"When I first met Thor, I was eleven. My dad had just finished cleaning up the whole Arizona mess with Thor. He insisted that Thor come and meet me because he knew that Thor would love me, since apparently I was a weird kid. My dad told me how Thor wasn't from earth and that we weren't the only ones in the world anymore. To be honest I thought he was pulling my leg and that Thor was just some man in a halloween custom. But than the whole Loki things came to be, and I had to live on a hellicarrier. I was scared of aliens and still am, regardless of how many times I have to fight some, or a human hating robot. But I knew I'm safe because I had my dad." I explain to Peter. Peter looks down at me smiling and kisses my lips gently.

"You're a weird kid." Peter says causing both of us to laugh harder.

Present

The tears stream down my face but I quickly wipe them away. "Its going to be fine, they will get the stones and everything will be normal." My eyes start to feel heavy and I close them hoping it was only for a minute.

Morning

"Letta." I hear Steve whisper lightly shaking my shoulder. My body jolts up and I look at Steve, my eyes begging that they got the stones.

But Steve doesn't give me a hopeful look, only a look of sadness. My heart breaks into millions of pieces and my chest starts to tighten up and feel heavy.

It was like the whole world was crashing down on top of me. Tears well up in my eyes and I shake my head trying to get air into my lungs.

"Letta! Letta you have to breath!" Steve yells trying to get me to breath, but nothing works. I lost him, I lost the love of my life forever.

There was no way to get him back. Tony comes rushing over a long with Nat and Pepper but I just hyperventilate.

"Kid." Tony whispers shoving Steve to the side. My eyes look into Tony's brown ones and they remind me of Peter's eyes.