Dammit ❀Kellic❀ (BoyxBoy)

Listen up- you can do anything you want In life, just DON'T BE A FUCKING BITCH

Tay POV

Walking home by yourself is a good and bad thing.

Good because you get to enjoy a nice, peaceful stroll. You get to have a chance to be alone and think to yourself. Or aloud. Who cares? Its just you. Anyways, those walks are ones I cherish. The kind of walks that have that cool breeze blowing. It pushes your hair back making it feel like you're in a movie or something. I always get a good feeling when I go through one of these walks.

But then there are days like today.

The bad walks. Where there is no wind blowing and its real humid out. You get that real paranoid feeling that someone is watching you. I'm always paranoid. Kellin says I'm weird, but fuck him. Right?  Whenever I get super paranoid it means that something is gonna happen. Its probably nothing. I'm getting too worked up about this. Oh, no. Wait. Here comes the bad feeling again. I can feel it in my gut. I get gum stuck on my shoe and I can smell the roadkill. As I near my house, I hear yelling. That's weird. I get to the driveway and I can hear it dying down a little when I put my key in the lock.

"Hello?" I say timidly.

I see my mom and dad in the kitchen. They're acting as if everything is normal. As if I didn't just almost walk into that just now.

"Are you guys alright?" I ask with a puzzled look etched across my face. I can clearly see that everything is not fine if they were just screaming at each other. My mother is the first to speak up.

"Oh, yeah, honey. How was school?"

"Fine." I say with furrowed eyebrows. "I'll be in my room."

I make my way towards the stairs. At the top is Kellin, looking like a lost little kid. Even if he's just a little older, I act like the big sister sometimes. I sit beside him and I take a deep breath.

"You alright? You look zoned out." I say with caution. If Kellin does this, its not a good sign. Damn. I was right about the walk. He looks at me with a blank expression.

"They were talking about me." He turns away and I see a tear slip. "I should've never tried. I wasn't even thinking about what this would do to them. They seem so mad. The hospital bills, the late nights, the moving, the burden of having me as a son. Hell, maybe I should've just made sure I'd die from it. Like, get hit by a bus or something. No one would care. I can't do anything right anyways. My own dad didn't even want me." He laughs a little and looks back at me. His blank expression has now changed to one of pain. He hugs me and that's when the tears come. Soaking my sleeve almost instantly. I hold onto him as tightly as I can. He hasn't thought like this in a long time. I pull back, putting my hands in his shoulder and looking him in the eyes.

"Hey," I say in a somewhat quiet, yet stern voice. "You know damn well that you'd be missed. Don't let anyone tell you different.  You hear me? You're so loved. You can't just want to leave me alone, would you? What would I do without my favorite little Kellin?" I ruffle his hair. He smiles and wipes away a few stray tears.

"Thanks, Tay. I don't even know why I'm crying. I usually don't think like this."

"Yeah, I know." I wipe away some tears. "Now remember the wise words of Chris Fronzak 'Listen up- you can do anything you want In life, just DON'T BE A FUCKING BITCH!'. I'm not calling you a bitch, but you get the gist. Okay?"

"Yeah. Okay." He gets up and offers me his hand. I take it, then dust myself off. I go to my room and flop on my bed. Just as about I'm about to close my eyes for a nap, I hear a knock at the door. I prop myself on my elbows.

"Hey, Kelly. What's up?" I say while smirking at the nickname that Kellin hates so much. He gets to my bed and throws a pillow at me.

"Shut up." He says smiling. Well, its good to see that he's not sad anymore. Or he's just not showing it. "Hey, you're a girl, right?" Well, okay then.

"Last time I checked." I chuckle." Why the sudden interest in my gender?"

"Well, I think I have some questions about boys." He stresses the word 'think'.

"Okaaaaay. What about them?"

"Do you think it'd be a bad idea for me to get into a relationship?" He asks shyly. I take a deep breath before having to explain why it would probably not be a good idea.

Kellin POV

"Do you think it'd be a bad idea for me to get into a relationship?" I say the words before I realize it. Tay looks at me with a sympathetic face.

"Kellin, I know that we moved here for a fresh start, but that doesn't necessarily mean that you should try and rush to make things better. You still have some problems to work out with yourself. I personally think that you're not in the best state, emotionally, to handle a relationship. Remember what happened with Matty? I don't want you to get hurt again. " I cringe at the mention of my dreaded ex.

That bitch.

"Yeah, I know. I was just, I don't know, curious."

"Why? Did someone catch your eye?" She winks and gives me a nudge.

"Maybe."

"Is is that guy you were sitting with at lunch? The purple haired kid?"

"No, his friend, Vic." I blush a little at the Mexican's name. "I know we just met, but there's just something about him."

"That guy with the nose ring? He's cuuuuuute! Props to you bro. You guts would look adorable."

"I know. Its just that I don't want a repeat of what happened last year."

"Right... " Tay's once excited expression falters. "Sorry."

"Don't be. You're not the one that told me to kill myself."

There's a silence before I decided to say goodnight and leave my stepsister's room. Making it into my band poster-filled room, I find myself thinking about what Tay said. Remember what happened with Matty? I don't want you to get hurt again. I know that Tay was trying to help me, but her words brought back some unwanted memories. I hate what Matty did. I really want to move on, but his presence still lingers in my mind. I should get to move on. He probably already has. I just need something to get my mind off things. If not by Vic, then by something else.  But for now, I will probably just keep a safe distance.

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