A Criminally Haunted Love

Chapter 14 week 2, day 5

Pov change: bold
Thoughts: bold and encircled
Journal entries: bold and italics
Dream sequences: bold and underlined

                  Zoey pov
When she woke up she noticed that she was lying on top of Mal and she had her legs wrapped around one of his. And her arms were wrapped around his waist, she tried to move away but something was stopping her.
"Where do you think you're going?" She looked up and saw that Mal was awake.
"Off of you." She answered.
"No you're not, I tried getting you off of me a few minutes ago. All you did was tighten your arms and legs and mumbled mine." Mal said.
"Does that mean I get to go back to sleep?" She asked. (Sorry hun)
"No, we might not have anything new to explore but we can still look around." Mal said.
"I'm going back to sleep." She said. (I need to ask him something and I don't know how to say I don't want the others to see, I hope he can figure it out) she laid her head back down on Mal's chest, not even a minute later she felt Mal running one of his hands through her hair, then he tried to sit up.
"Come on love sit up....they're not watching either." Mal said, she sat up along with Mal, but she stayed in the same position she had been laying down in.
"What's wrong love?" Mal asked, she didn't answer him.
"Love?" Mal asked.
(Authors note: read the next authors note it's very, very important, it's going to explain what's about to happen and why it's there. End author note)
"Do you remember last night?" She whispered the question.
"Which part of last night?" Mal asked.
"The part where you caught me looking down at your....anyway I was wondering if I could see it,if the offer is still there." She whispered, she knew Mal heard her when he gently squeezed her hips.
"What changed your mind?" Mal asked.
"I realized I was more curious than I thought." She said.
"Are you sure, this isn't a decision you made while half asleep?" Mal asked.
"I'm sure." She answered.
"You're going to have move love." Mal whispered. A couple minutes later she moved the blankets away from them, then she moved so she was sitting next to Mal. Another couple minutes later, Mal reached inside his underwear and pulled out his penis, he was hard or at least he looked like he was. The longer she looked she could feel her blush darkening, when Mal pulled back his foreskin to reveal the head, she bit her bottom lip and a few seconds later she turned her head away so she wasn't looking at Mal's penis. When she turned her head back so she was looking at Mal, she saw that he had covered himself back up and he was looking at her curiously.
"I'm impressed, how-" She stopped talking, but she guessed that Mal had figured out what she was going to say because his blush darkened.
"Seven inches." Mal whispered, she figured at this point her cheeks were as red as her hair and they were going to stay like that. Then she noticed that Mal would glance down at her breasts every couple of seconds.
"Do you want to look, hun?" She asked.
"You don't have to show me." Mal muttered.
"Do you want to look?" She asked again, this time with a small smile.
"I...um.....yeah I want to look." Mal answered, it took her a couple of minutes to work up the courage to do it but she took off the top half of her night dress. Mal's eyes widdened and she noticed he was rubbing the bulge in his pants for a second before stopping himself, she watched Mal look at every little detail of her breasts. After a couple of minutes she started to get uncomfortable, not because Mal was seeing her breasts. It was the fact that this was the first time a guy was looking at them as intensely as Mal was. She guessed Mal had figured out she was getting uncomfortable because he looked away, while Mal wasn't looking at her, she put the top half of her night dress back on.
"What do you think?" She asked, Mal looked back at her and gave her a quick kiss to her forehead.
"I think you're beautiful and thank you for showing me something so personal, you didn't have to." Mal answered.
"You're welcome hun, and thank you as well." She whispered, and kissed his cheek.
"You're welcome love." Mal whispered.
(Authors note extremely important: This hasn't got anything to do with Mike's pov from the last chapter. There is nothing sexual about this though it will help with that later. Right now that was mere curiosity and I put it there to show how much the two have started to trust each other when it comes to their bodies. That was showing how much they truely trust each other. This is going to be more of a heart to heart chapter and I thought that it would be good to let them have something that personal without it being a joke. End of extremely important authors note)
"I'm going to take a shower." Mal said, when she didn't say anything.
"Ok." She replied. (Probably going to fix that problem) Mal got out of bed and walked to the bathroom, a few minutes later she heard the shower running. Maybe fifteen minutes later, Mal walked out of the bathroom, still in his night clothes.
"You left any hot water?" She asked.
"Yes, I did." Mal answered, she got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. Once she was under the water she realized how turned on she was. So she started to touch herself, while she did she couldn't help but think of what she saw and who let her see it. When she was finished with her shower, she put her night dress back on and walked out of the bathroom. She saw that Mal had already put the lower half of his suit on, Mal looked at her questioningly. The look wasn't a what were you doing look, but more of a are you ok look, she nodded her head, grabbed some clothes and walked behind the folding screen.
"You can come back here." She said, once the corset was covering her, a few seconds later she felt Mal tying the laces.
"Hun, what are we going to search, there's almost nothing left?" She asked.
"Well I thought we could try and open the front doors, after that I don't know." Mal answered.
"That isn't much of a plan, but it will do for now." She said, as she put on her dress then turned around to help Mal with his shirt. (That isn't really even a plan)
"Let me know if you think of something better." Mal replied, after Mal was completely dressed they got their video cameras, walked to the kitchen and ate breakfast, after that they walked to the front door.
"Do you want to go to the secret library, there might be notes hidden in some of the books?" She asked, after they couldn't get the door open.
"Sure." Mal said, she grabbed his hand, he didn't question her and led them to the secret library, where they began their search.
"They seemed to fit together very well." She said, as she walked over to Mal, she had found some books that had notes in them. The notes were filled with playful banter between 1905 Mal and 1905 Zoey.
"Wouldn't that be considered a good thing?" Mal asked, she nodded her head, then she frowned and sat her video camera down on the table next to them, Mal copied her actions.
"Love?" Mal asked, she didn't say anything, she just hugged him, it took a minute but Mal hugged her back.
"Did you really mean what you said.... that you weren't going to leave me?" She whispered the question, she was so quiet with asking the question that the video cameras didn't catch what she was whispering into Mal's ear.
"We've already searched the room but did you find anything interesting?" She asked. (Why don't I want him to not let go of me, why does it feel nice being in his arms)
"I didn't find anything." Mal answered, she didn't say anything, she also didn't end the hug but Mal wasn't ending it either.
"Are you going to let go?" Mal whispered the question.
"Are you?" She repeated the question, Mal chuckled and squeezed her hips, then he let her go.
"The hug needed to end." Mal whispered.
"Are you sure, I was enjoying that hug?" She asked, Mal chuckled and kissed her cheek.
"I'm sure, it needed to end because it's time for dinner." Mal whispered, she fake pouted which made Mal chuckle again, she smiled and handed Mal a video camera the other one. She grabbed hold of Mal's free hand and quickly led them to the kitchen. After dinner she and Mal went back to their room, grabbed the journals and sat down on the couch, she opened the journal in her hands and she paled.
"What's wrong?" Mal asked.
"There are tear stains all over the page." She answered. (This is bad)
"Something must have happened." Mal said.
"Open the journal in your hands, let's see what's inside." She said, Mal opened the journal and he paled.
"What's wrong?" She asked.
"There's dried blood on the page." Mal answered.
"We better start reading these, figure out what happened." She said, Mal nodded his head and she began to read aloud.
  June 11th 1905,
I'm going to start at the beginning of today, I spent the first half of the morning with Mal, I was going to spend the entire day with Mal but I started to feel sick. I told Mal I was going to take a nap and see if I felt better later. I knew it was a stupid idea since we were in the foyer but I gave Mal a quick kiss to the lips before hurrying off to my room. As soon as I was in my room, I went to the bathroom and took off my dress, pulled the skirt of my corset up and saw some blood on my upper thigh.... I wasn't pregnant. After I put my dress back on, I wrote a note telling Mal to meet me in the center of the hedge maze at midnight, I put the note in Mal's room then I went back to my room to take a nap. It was around 11:30pm that I went to the hedge maze, not long afterwards I saw Mal, when he was standing in front of me, I stood up and hugged him. Mal asked me what was wrong, I told him I wasn't pregnant, he tightened the hug and said he was sorry, I asked if we could have a baby now. Mal chuckled and asked when, I said as soon as possible, Mal chuckled and kissed me and I kissed him back. Suddenly Mal was jerked away from me, I opened my eyes and saw daddy, Matthew and Mike. Matthew had ahold of Mal while daddy had ahold of me, I asked daddy where he was taking us. He didn't answer me, I got my answer a few minutes later when we ended up in the dungeon and Matthew threw Mal into a cell and daddy made me sit down on a chair while Mike made sure I didn't move. I asked daddy what he was doing, he said that this was punishment, he didn't say anything else because I knew what he was talking about. I said that I had a choice, daddy said which I chose for you, I asked daddy what he was going to do, he didn't answer me, he just looked at Matthew. Matthew was now holding a whip and was standing in the cell Mal was in. I asked daddy to not do this, Matthew said there was no other choice and if I didn't watch Mal would die, then Mal said not to watch and that he would be ok. I shook my head and said I'm sorry I have to, I don't want you to die, then Matthew began to whip Mal. I screamed for them to stop but they wouldn't listen, at the same time Mal was telling me not to watch, and the one time I tried to move, Mike bruised my shoulder with how hard he was keeping me down. What seemed like an eternity later Matthew stopped whipping Mal and sat him against the wall, then Matthew walked out of the cell making sure to close the door to the cell. I thought it was over until daddy handed Mike a gun and said to shoot Mal, I begged for Mike not to shoot Mal but he didn't listen. Daddy took the gun and told Mike to take me back upstairs, I was in so much shock that I couldn't even protest. But once I was in my room alone, I guess I got over the shock because I started to cry..... I'm still crying, a couple minutes after I was in my room I heard a knock on my door. I opened the door, it was Manitoba, I started to cry harder, Manitoba hugged me and asked if he could come into my room. I said he could, I led him into my room, closing the door behind him, I asked him how did daddy, Matthew and Mike figure out Mal and I. Manitoba said that he didn't know then he asked if I wanted him to check on Mal, I hugged him and said yes. A few minutes later Manitoba came back, he said that Mal was....is dead, I asked Manitoba if Mal died because he got shot. Manitoba didn't say anything, he only hugged me and asked if I wanted him to stay a little longer. I shook my head, he asked me if I was sure, I nodded my and led him out of my room and said I would talk to him later. After I was completely alone again I started to cry harder, I can't believe Mal's dead. I didn't even get the chance to tell him I loved him ..... I still love him.... I was going to wait for our wedding before I told him though.
  She stopped reading the journal, she wasn't finished reading it but she was crying too hard to continue.
"It's ok, love." Mal whispered, while pulling her into his side, she shook her head, she heard Mal sighed but he let her continue to cry.
"Feel better?" Mal asked, after she had stopped crying.
"Yeah, sorry." She apologized.
"It's alright, you don't have to apologize I can tell why you got upset." Mal said, while gently squeezing her shoulders.
"I better read the next journal entry." She whispered.
"Are you sure?" Mal asked, she nodded her head, Mal gently squeezed her shoulders again, she sighed and began to read the next journal entry aloud.
     July 14th 1905,
I know it's been a long time since I've written in this but I didn't feel like writing, the only reason I'm writing in this now is because Manitoba suggested it. In fact Manitoba is sitting next to me, we're in the attic..... I'll get to the reason why we're in the attic in a minute but first I'm going to start after Mal died. After Mal died I spent the first week in my room and the only people I would see was my mother and Manitoba. After that week my dad forced me out of my room and tried to make me spend time with Mike. I couldn't spend any amount of time with Mike.... I could spend some time with Svetlana, Chester and Vito, when it came to Manitoba, I could spend an entire day with him. One day Mike tried to apologize for his involvement in Mal's death, but I wouldn't allow it... he didn't mean it and I ended up just yelling at him, after that I avoided Mike. My dad, Thomas and Mike gave me the wedding dress the bought for me, they also gave me an engagement ring. The engagement ring had a white gold band with the jewel was a big red ruby, I just put the objects in a suitcase and put the suitcase under my bed. Manitoba has been around much more often than before, which is fine with me, but even with how much time I've spent with Manitoba and my mom, I'm still as upset as I was the night Mal died.... I think they knew that too. The other day during dinner my dad said that for a wedding gift I could build a secret room. I told my dad that there won't be anymore secret rooms, they were useless and I wasn't going to let anyone use a secret room for a different reason than it was intended for again. My dad looked like I physically hurt him, I left before anyone could say anything, today Manitoba and I went horseback riding and I asked him if he would help me hide the two portraits. Manitoba said he would help hide the portraits....then I asked him if he could help me find rope and a ladder. Manitoba asked me how long have I thought about it, I told him awhile then he asked if I was sure I wanted to do what I was planning I said I was sure. Then Manitoba said that if I do what I was planning there wasn't any going back, I said that I knew that, then I begged him to help. Manitoba sighed and said that he would help then he asked when it was going to happen, I said tonight, he sighed and said ok. After dinner and after everyone was in their rooms, Manitoba and I hid the portraits then Manitoba whispered that he had the rope and ladder in the attic, I told him that was fine. When we got to the attic, it was already set up, before I was able to walk to the ladder Manitoba said I should write in my journal -which he said I should bring- one last time. A couple minutes earlier I asked him why he was helping me, Manitoba said that I would have done it even if he refused to help. Then Manitoba said that he didn't want me to do it alone, that I shouldn't have to do this alone, I hugged and thanked him. After I let Manitoba go, I told him to leave me the way I was and to not tell anyone where I was. He looked like he wanted to protest but I guess he figured out why I was telling him to leave me the way I was and not to tell anyone, because he didn't protest. I'm going to give Manitoba the journal so he can hide it.
    July 14th 1905,
I'm sorry darlin for writing in your journal but I need to get this off my chest, the night Mal died and I went to check on him, Mal was still alive. I walked into the cell and said that he needed to see a doctor, Mal just shook his head and said that he would be dead before an actual doctor would reach him. Then he handed me a journal, engagement ring and knife and told me to hide them. I asked if he was sure he wanted to hide the engagement ring, he nodded his head and said that if Zoey saw it, she would only get upset because they wouldn't be getting married. Mal told me to not tell Zoey that he died of blood loss, I knew why he didn't want me to tell her, it was because Mal was in a lot of pain and he didn't want her to know that he had a slow, painful death. Right before Mal died he told me to stay by Zoey's side and help her with whatever she asked, I told him I would. After Mal wasn't breathing anymore I hid the journal, engagement ring and knife, then I left the dungeon to tell Zoey the bad news. After that night...... well things went down hill from there....at least where it concerns Zoey..... today she in more or less words asked me to help her kill herself. I knew that she would do it with or without me, so I agreed to help her, when we were in the attic I told her to write in her journal. She did then she handed it to me, and after I promised her some stuff she walked over to the ladder and climbed it. Before she put the noose around her neck, Zoey said she was scared, I asked her if she still wanted to do this, she nodded her head. I told her that I wasn't going to leave, she wouldn't be alone through any of it, then Zoey asked if she would get to see Mal again. I told her, she would get to see Mal again, Zoey smiled and said thank you, then she put the noose around her neck and tightened it. I asked her if she wanted me to remove the ladder, she nodded her head, when I was next to the ladder I asked her if she still wanted to do this. Zoey nodded her head, I sighed and pulled the ladder, I wanted to save her but she wouldn't be happy with me if I did. I stayed there until she stopped twitching and I knew she was gone, I left the attic leaving Zoey the way she was. I hope she and Mal are together....if they couldn't be together in life then they should at least be together in the afterlife, now I need to hide this journal.
                               -Manitoba