Vulnerable

Damien

Damien is the type of guy that attracts most girls. He's 6'2" 215 lbs. He's strong and has those well defined muscles without looking like those guys who are overly built and just unappealing in my opinion. He has light brown, captivating eyes and his long dark locs that turned brown at the ends. The way how his brown skins glows with the touch of the sun is captivating. I'm not quite sure where that perfect smile of his comes from, but I love it all the same. He has an amazing sense of humor. Hilarious, really. Every time I leave from being with him my stomach feels like I just did an ab day at the gym. We can bullshit back and forth and feed off of each other. Always laughing, and always enjoying ourselves.

However,  Damien is what I like to call a "confuser." He'll start saying something then decide he didn't want to say it and when you ask "what?" he will never tell you. If you're talking about something he doesn't want to be talking about he changes the subject or asks questions to guide the conversation away from the topic at hand. Normally I would pickup on a bullshitting like him but he does it so effortlessly that if you're not paying attention you'll miss it. Damien knows what he wants and he knows how to get it. He plays the game and he plays it well. His only problem with that is that he's finally me his match, me. Someone that knows the game well and can call bullshit from a mile a way. His tricks and tactics and sweet talk do not work on me and he knows it. But of course, Damien LOVES a challenge. So here we are.

We have agreed to keep things "one thousand" as we like to call it. One thousand meaning everything is straightforward. We tell each other like it is without any hesitation. He talks to other girls, I talk to other guys. We hang out when we want to and have time to and don't when we don't want to.No reasons, no excuses, no explanation. Yes or no. Easy. Simplified. We don't ask very many questions though. I don't need to know who he's with or what he's doing moment by moment, nor do I care to know. The best way I can try to communicate it to you is that are letting each other live while still being a part of each others' lives. We are 22. We are young and we are going to do what young 22 year old people do. We are going to go out and flirt with other people and drink and have fun and live our lives the way we want to while we still can.

I think it's a beautiful way to live, really. At this point in my life it is all I could hope for. Being free to live as I please and taking things as they are. Damien and I are not people you can cage and tie down and that is why this works.  We understand that about each other and just let things be however they are and however they are going to be. Who has time for rules and restrictions and "you're only mine" and "let's be together forever." Forever? We are 22 and we do not want all of that. Not yet.