Couldn't stop caring (Bellarke)!!!

Chapter Ten :I Failed You

So this chapter is going to be interesting,sad and happy.

Clarke
I woke up in Bells arms. I felt safe and warm,i didn't want this moment to end i just wanted to stay in his arms forever. "Good morning princess" he said and kissed my forehead. I smiled " I love you" i said to him " Well i love you more" he argued " mhmm sure" i
Said sarcastically he laughed and we got up and put on our clothes. Then headed out side. " Ahhh and look whos up" Murphy said "wait were is Madi and Aurora" Bell asked " They slept with Octavia we thought you would enjoy some..(he stopped and smirked) ..Alone time" he chuckled. Me and Bellamy looked at each other and smiled.

Madi
Ew Ew Ew. I cant believe Clarke and Bellamy...Ew! I needed to talk to him about Clarke their are something that Clarke wont tell him that he needs to know. " Bellamy can i talk you..Alone" i asked " Sure we can go to the river if you would like" i nodded and we left. We got their and i asked if he wanted to swim but he said no. " So their are some things you need to know that Clarke is hidding from you" he looked confused " What do you mean" he asked " When you were in space she would have nightmares some nights she would wake up screaming and it scared me half to death. She also had hallucinations and they would be of you she would hallucinate you coming home then be heartbroken again that it wasn't real. She radioed you everyday but she would ussally only be talking to you she cried her self to sleep because you were a year late so she thought she had failed and you all died" i told him and i could see the tears in his eyes " Why didnt she tell me" he asked " I dont know but i thought when you all came down she would get better but she was beaten and im aftaid it will just get worse" i said " but she was fine last night" " Yeah thats probably because she was in your arms" i said. He looked at the ground. " hey its not your fault i just thought you would like to know so if it does get worse then you wont be surprised" he nodded the someone pushed me to the ground. I saw... Roger. " What do you think your doing" Bellamy said with a low and hateful voice. He and bellamy started fighting. Then a grounder started shooting arrows. Me and Bellamy ran as fast as we could.....

Clarke
Im afraid that Madi is telling him about my hallucinations and nightmares. God, i hope she isn't. I hope she keeps her promise.

I walked over to the medical room. It was really hard to walk and with each step sent pain up my leg but i can manage. I walked in and saw my mom cleaning up. " Oh  Clarke jeez you scared me" she said but i just turned to leave " Clarke i dont know why you are mad at me can you at least tell me." I didnt do anything execpt continue walking out the room. I was so mad at her i heard her and Bellamys conversation she did this to me. She has no idea how much pain and suffering i went through. I was suddenly caught off gaurd by a scream. MADI. I ran as fast as i could following the screams and cries when i found her and Bellemy i knew i was too late. Madi was caught in a bear trap and Bellsmy was holding her dieing bodey "no.No.NO" I cried i ran over and took her limp body out of his hands and into mine " C-Clarke" Madi barley whispered "Yes baby im hear im right hear" she gave a weak smile then all i heard was her last breath "NO" i screamed i put my head on her stomach and cried i dont think i have ever cried this much in my whole life. Bellamy walked over and picked me up. The hugged me. I cried into his shoulder. Then everyone came too see what all the noise was and they were just as shocked "Sissy" Aurora yelled and ran over to Madi's body. I let go of Bellamy. " Aurora baby...(i sobed).. Sissy is umm" i looked up at Bellamy. He bent down and hugged Aurora " Sissy is going somewhere else somewhere better and safer she has left this world and is going into another" he explained. I thanked him and he picked up Aurora and i picked up Madi.

When we got back to camp we burned her body. I dont think i would have been able to handle this without Bellamy. " Thank you" i told him " For what" he asked " For being here i wouldn't have been able to handle this on my own"I told him " You survived six years with two kids yes. This would have been very hard it would have been another opsticle thrown in your way but i think you would have manged. Your strong, Heck the grounders call you Wanheda" he explained. I smiled and laid my head on his shoulder.

Bellamy
This really hurts. I had grown close to Madi and had hoped that one day maybe she would start to call me dad but that is gone. This is harder for Clarke more than anyone i mean maybe Aurora but she is too little to understand. Clarke laid her head on my shoulder and fell asleep. I caried her to our room and laid her in bed so she could take a nap in peace. I walked outside and told everyone about Roger. I decided not to tell anybody about abby and she thanked me for that. " Hey o" i said walking up to octavia " Hows Clarke" she asked " Shes taking a nap" " BELLAMY" abby yelled and i walked over to her " Yes." I questioned " I need you to do me a favor" " And why would i do that just because i didnt tell anyone doesnt mean were friends" i said " look just can you tell me why Clarke hates me" she asked and i thought for a minute " ok" i said and walked back to Octavia " What did she want" O asked " Its nothing" I proclaimed " Whatever you say" she chuckled. I rolled my eyes and walked to home. When i walked in i heard the shower. "Daddy is Madi ever coming back" she asked "No sweetie" i smiled sadly. Then the shower turned off and Clarke walked out with a towel wrapped aroung her. She saw me glancing at her " Like what you see" she joked "oh ha ha" i i said and she grabbed her clothes and went back into the bathroom to change. I laughed at myself . When she came back i sat on the bed and pulled her into my lap. " Clarke" "Bellamy" she giggled "Clarke your mom wanted me to talk to you" i said and she rolled her eyes "I don't want to talk her end of." She stated "why" i asked "I know what she did when she told you i heard it i heard everything" i said "Oh" is all i could say and i looked at the ground " Anyways lets not talk about that i need today to be happy day so i down have a break down" she said so i decided not to talk about her mom or her nightmares.

The rest of the day really wasn't that happy but Clarke managed to keep a smile on her face. "Bellamy did you find out anything" Abby asked "She knows that it was your fault" i said not looking at her "How did she-" i cut her off "She heard you" i snapped and walked away.

I know what im going to do but i need Octavias help. Im going to do what i should have did a long time ago. Im going to do what i have longed to do.....

Ahh i don't know how this Chapter was but the next one is going to A HUGE Bellarke step and marper moments!!!