Inner Silence

This Isn't Just You

This isn't just you

It's hurting other people too

I'm being slammed between forces

One that hates me

Is disgusted by me

Wishes they had never known me

And ignores me

I'm speaking

But no one is listening

No one knows the pain

Of having someone turn so swiftly

And leave you standing in the pouring rain

Wondering what went wrongly

I'm turning inwards

Trying to by strong

I'm attempting to move forwards

But I know I won't hold long

I'll break

And be long gone

Goodbye

So long

Good riddance

Are the words I'm afraid to hear

Or the worst

The silence

Because you are no longer here

Who stay by someone who that hate? 

Not a sane person

Not you

But me

Even if you hate me

I'll never turn my back on you

It's the way I live

Every breath I give

Is so you won't know

No one understands how I've held so long

How I've kept moving

Kept living

I see the person I once knew

In you

And since you hate me

I won't pain you by my presence

I'll stay in the shadows

And hoping that you know

If you ever need anything

I'm always present

A/N: People hate me and I don't know why. They keep saying I'm lying and stabbing them in the back. It's gotten so bad that a few people are starting to fear for my life. Someone once told me that my pain is just as important as everybody else's. I don't have to hide it. It's not a burden to anyone. I want people to know I'm hurting but don't want to burden them in any way. I've been told that telling people they're hurting me is okay, but I'm scared. I'm afraid they'll think that I'm selfish for caring about my pain when they're experiencing so much themselves. A few months ago, they would've cared and tried to help. Now I'm afraid they'll hate me more. (If that's possible.)

Sorry for all of the crap I just said. The person who I want to read this won't because they hate me. So there was no point to that. *Shrug* I don't think life can get any worse for me, so why the heck not.