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Ellen Donelly

hii everyone :) as you can see this part happens to be just a bit longer than the previous, and i'm pretty proud i had the chance to update quickly :p hope you'll like it , please leave comments, like and maybe fan ? i'll, love you forever xx - yasmin

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" mates ? " Kylie wondered after she hang up. who could they be ? more over how many of them are they ? she remembered Niall saying something about them coming from london. could they be british ? She hoped so. 

but endless pictures flickered one after the other in the private theather that was Kylie's mind just by mentionning the city's name. it reminded her of her mother. She couldn't even name her that way, because she believed a real mother would never leave her child, not even to pursue her dreams. but that's what Ellen did. Yes, that was her mother's name. 

Ellen Donelly was the woman who gave birth to Kylie on december 13th 1994. but on december 17th, She disappeared in the thin air. She left Andrew with the burden of taking care and raising a baby he loved more than everything but knew he couldn't handle because of his work status. From her dad's painstaking stories about her "mom" , Kylie knew the reason behind this sudden departure. Ellen felt the need to pursue her dreams, becoming a succesful singer , thinking that she was too young to settle down, not even for her dearly loved husband. But when the pregnancy test turned out to be positive, she had to push aside any desire of fullfilling what she wanted. 

Ellen spent the entire 9 months preparing herself to be a mom, but she still had her fears and doubts. Andrew said that at that point, it was normal for a pregnant woman to have second thoughts and doubts about the child's future, because he guessed that was what Ellan had on her mind. But 4 days after Kylie was brought to this world, Truth and reality came smacking Andrew right in the face. What was on Ellen's mind was far beyond worrying about the baby : She was only worrying about HERSELF. He woke up on that morning at the sound of Kylie's cries. However, instead of finding his wife lying beside him, his hands lay on a sheet of paper, a long test written on it. it was Ellen's handwriting. He read : 

"   Dearest Andrew, 

                 I'll be gone for hours by the time you read this note. All i wanted to say is that i love both Kylie and you, i really do , from the bottom of my heart, but this is too much for me. I'm sure Kylie will be better off me. You saw how awkwardly and badly i reacted when i first touched than held her. That should give you a clue. i wouldn't be a good mother to her. She will be better with you. 

   On the other hand, i have the pursue my dream. I can't bare the mere thought of living a normal life, everyday wondering about what could have been if i actually had gotten out there and given my best to become the person I've always wanted to be. 

   I know this is so far from justifiers for my act, but please forgive me. 

                                                         Goodbye. Lots of love

                                                                                            Ellen "