Absolved.

Longing

{{Author here.... Gets a little bit lemony in this one..

Alright guys, you asked for it... I attempted it.. Let me know what you think, rewrite this chapter without the details, or keep attempting this?}}

[Song: My Escape - Ravenscode]

Our soft, sweet kisses had given way to something more.. Something instinctual that had me wriggling in his arms until I got my body as close to his as I could manage as we sat on the floor of the hotel balcony.

There was a deepening need inside my body, this hollow feeling that only seemed to alleviate when I was close to Kakashi. I could tell he felt it too, from the way he tangled his fist in my hair as he kissed me, keeping me as tight to him as possible.

I gasped for air as our lips parted, and I lifted my head to see the moon again as he trailed kisses along my jawline and down my neck. Every time his lips touched my skin it caused a burning, tingling sensation that made my breath catch in my throat.

His free hand clutched my back, his fingers grazing the bare skin beneath my shirt and sending chills up my spine.

"Kakashi.." I whispered, putting my hands on his face and kissing his forehead softly. I was unable to communicate the words I needed to tell him how I felt.. To tell him how much I needed him.

He let out a low sound somewhere between a groan and something... Sexier.

I felt his hands move, down to my thighs as he grabbed me and lifted me with him. I clung to him as he stood and opened the screen door. I copied him as he moved us inside, placing kisses along his sharp jaw and down his neck. When his flack jacket got in the way, I found myself pushing it off his shoulders, and he wiggled out of it leaving it on the floor somewhere between the balcony door and the bed he carried me to.

He laid me down between himself and the bed, and we just stared at each other. The look in his heavily lidded eyes chased away all the words and worries in my head, I knew I was smiling like an idiot but I couldn't help it.

He leaned in and gently kissed my forehead, the way he had done so many times before. "We should get some sleep." his voice was too raw and harsh to be a whisper.

My responding pout must have set something off in him, because once again his lips came crushing down against mine. Our tongues and bodies tangled and intertwined. I felt drunk, but in a different way than I had from the sake. I was drunk on his kisses, on his touches and I wanted more.

I found myself pulling up his shirt so I could feel the muscles on his chest, the scars, the heat of his body. He groaned a little and sat up to pull his shirt off, and as he did, I did the same wanting nothing more than to feel every inch of his skin on mine.

Kakashi gazed down at me with a hungry look in his eyes, his sharingan glowing in the darkness of the room as he bit his lip and trailed a hand softly along the curves of my body. "Do you understand how beautiful you are?"

I blushed deeply, and brought my hands up to try and hide from him but he caught them and pinned them above my head so he could continue to look at me. "You have nothing to hide from me.." He leaned down to kiss me again, letting my hands go.

As my hands explored his naked torso, his did the same, one pressed against the bed to hold his weight off of me, the other making its way from my neck down to my chest where he cupped and massaged me. He caught my nipple between his fingers and the responding noise I made seemed to amuse him as he continued to play with it.

I felt him grow where he was pressed between my legs and I couldn't stop the way my body moved against him, longing for him.

"Kakashi.." I whimpered to him.

He pressed his hand against my chest, holding me against the bed as he pulled away, his breath heavy. "We should stop before.."

"I don't want to." I cut him off, some new found confidence leading me to press the palm of my hand against the front of his pants where I knew he was weakest to resist.

"I don't want to hurt you." He whispered, but the way he pressed his hips back against my palm told me differently.

"It's okay.." I assured him, pushing down and wiggling out of my own pants so I was left bare aside from black panties. "I want you."

I didn't know a lot about sex, Jiraiya's dirty novel was about all I had for reference. Baki had tried to talk to me about it once, but I'd thrown teddy bears at him until he retreated from my room and we never brought it up after.

This didn't feel as awkward as I had thought, it was almost instinctual. I can't say I hadn't thought about having sex with Kakashi before, but somehow it was always different than this..

"I see you two managed to find some fun without me." An amused old voice came from somewhere by the door.

Kakashi let out a string of curses, pulling blankets over me before he leapt out of bed and attacked Jiraiya.

I buried myself deep beneath the covers and groaned, wishing I could just disappear.