Passing By

Weight On Your Back(Ch. 14)

2 Week Later

Nicki's thoughts:

After my little...breakdown that all went down during the party, it feels as if it never really happened. I like how no one brings it up, but...it feels weird though. Like, every one is avoiding what happen for the sake of me. As if they think I'm actually hurt by it. I will say I was a little hurt how someone who barely knew me felt the need to air out my past laundry, but me fighting her wasn't because she struck a nerve. I fought her because I was drunk and she was being mad disrespectful to me all night long and her trying to "humiliate" me with that last one as if all my friends didn't already know about it made me mad. Am I wrong for letting her taunting and disrespect get the best of me? Yes. Am I wrong for putting her in her place? No. The bitch deserved every punch and stomp. People might think that me having a abortion is a touchy and sensitive subject to me and that's why I don't talk about it, but that's not even the case. I choose not to bring it up because I was foolish for going thru with it. I was foolish for even getting in the damn car with my dad. And...I was foolish for opening my legs to Aaron...
I know if I bring it up, people would want to know the things that led up to me laying down on the clinic table and even if it was half my dad's fault, I don't want to air him out to the word. My fans already hate him for what they already knew of him. Besides I forgave him. It's not really a touchy subject, it's just something I choose not to share.

Nicki:

"KENNY!" I yelled from our bedroom to Kenny who was all the way down in the kitchen.

"YES!?" He yelled back.

"CAN YOU GRAB ME MY CHOCOLATE AND WATER PLEASE BABE?!"

"YEAH I GOT IT!"

A couple of minutes later he walked up with what I asked and a purple powerade for him. He handed me the goods as I pecked his lips and thanked him with a smile.

"Yo back still hurting?" He asked me.

"It's not hurting as much. Just sharp pains here and there. Prolly cause I'm on my cycle or sum shit." I shrugged.

He nodded "Alright babe. Imma gon head and take me a quick shower and come back and give you a massage. You need any thing before I do?" He asked me sincerely.

"I'm good babe."

"You sure?"

"I'm sure." I replied quietly as he said alright and took off his shirt and threw it in the dirty clothes hamper and walked into the bathroom.

For a week now I've been having these very bad sharp pains in my lower back and even though I assured Ken that it was probably due to my period starting, since it started two days after the pain came, he still thinks I should be on bed rest. I've also been a little lightheaded lately, but I may just be a little dehydrated. This whole week passing by on bed rest, I can't get no work done. He doesn't even think I should be on social media for right now because he thinks my fans put too much pressure on me and stress me out sometimes. Even if be may be true, I can't stay away from my babies for too long. Good thing he taking me off of bed rest in a day or two from now. Him taking initiative was actually a turn on, but this nigga not only took my work away from me, but he also took sex away from me. Like nigga IS YOU DUMB.