Passing By

Strike 3(Ch. 15)

Continued:

"I lost a baby I didn't even know I had." She said bursting out crying.

"I know baby. I know baby. I'm here for you..."

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Kenny:

"Baby...I'm so sorry." Nicki said as she cried into my neck with a tight grip on me.

"This is none of your fault. I shouldn't have left you by yourself."

"IT IS MY FAULT. YOU'VE BEEN TELLING ME TO STOP STRESS AND STOP WORKING SO HARD AND NOW I DID THIS TO US. BECAUSE I WAS BEING SO STUPID, I LOST OUR CHILD KENNETH! THIS IS THE SECOND TIME GODDAMMIT!" she said as her crying got harder.

"Baby....it's ok. You didn't know. Listen to me." I said now grabbing both sides of her face so she was now looking me in the eyes.

"We're gonna get through this together."

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I don't give a shit about them narratives about how hood niggas ain't suppose to cry and shit. Real hood niggas are supposed to cry when it comes to the ones they love. We just lost our daughtet or son and we couldn't do anything about it. So yeah a nigga gonna cry and comfort his future wife.

How?

This her third baby....

Nicki:

Nothing in the world can bring me as much pain as this. I. Lost. Another. Baby. My heart is completely shattered and all I can do is cry.

WHY ME?!

I think God is punishing me for the things I did.

This....is the third time I lost a baby.
It's like God doesn't want me to have a child. But that's all I could want to make my life complete.

Can I not have children?

Strike one....

FLASHBACK:

"NOO!!!" She screamed at the top of her lungs as her dad grabbed a hold of her and dragged her to the back as she kicked and screamed.....

After Surgery:

[I- I can't believe he just made me kill my baby just for some drug money.]
She said to herself as tears fell down her face and her cervix was hurting.

BACK TO PRESENT:

Strike two...

FLASHBACK:

"MEEK PLEASE BABY DON'T DO THIS! I PROMISE YOU I'M NOT CHEATING!"

He grabbed me by my hair and yanked me up from the ground and wrapped his big hand around my neck and tightened his grip each minute.

"You think I believe that shit! I gave you too many passes but you really fucked up with this shit." He gritted thru his teeth as I clawed at his hand around my neck.

I honestly don't know what he was talking about. All I know is I seen a clip of Drake saying "Is that your tour or your girl's tour?" but I didn't make nothing of it, but apparently Meek took it as some type of way and came home wreaking havoc...ever since him and Drake been beefing he been acting insecure and believing all the lies he hears. Like, come on....we're famous. You can't believe that stupid shit.

"BABY PLEASE LET ME GO! I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT!" I said quickly becaude his grip on my neck was getting dangerously tight and I could feel my conscious slipping from me. His eyebrows furrowed impossibly closer together.