My Iced Over Heart is Melting

Uncertainty

Izuku was scared and confused. She felt bad? Voices in her head? Was Shoko ok? So many questions yet so little answers. He was still terrified of Shoko yet a part of him wanted to see if she was ok. He had so many questions yet so little time so choices had to be made.

Sure he could get mad he had every right to be but should he? He was the victim here after all. But this was a basically his sister he cared for her. If she was having these problems was it the Shoko he knew that had done these acts on him.

But then he began to think about the fear he felt. The absolute feeling of worthlessness and anger flood his mind as did the tears to his eyes. The true reality of the situation hit him. Shoko was mentally unstable and need help, but what she had done to him was worse than that. What she had done had no excuses.

Izuku heart pained. It hurt because he was lost, because of this feeling of being worthless would not go away, and the feeling of rage toward Shoko was not going away either. But then his mind cleared he could solve his aching heart with answers. Answers that Shoko held.

"..s..S-Shoko why?" All the pain he felt mustered into a single question why.
"I.. i .... I'm sorry Izuku. But I don't know why either. I just lost control. Like I was not really in control." Shoko ashamed and guilt ridden response did not satisfy him it only made him more confused and angry.
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T KNOW? Y-y-you did this to me." Izuku screamed at her as tears flood his eyes and he began to break down.

Shoko just stood their her head hung low unable to respond.
"ANSWER ME!" Izuku demanded as he got closer to her. Shoko did nothing she could do nothing how could she even respond.
"Izuku I know its to late to little but I'm sorry. I'm so sorry please just forgive me" Shoko said as she got on her knees and begged.

Izuku froze she was sorry but she still deserved some form of punishment. But he still remained torn. Torn between the memories of his once beloved sister and the deranged in need of help woman she had became. His mind filled with thoughts he now stood frozen in thought.
"Umm ... Izuku are you ok?" Shoko asked with worry. Izuku remained silent deep in thought. Shoko waited for him to come back to his sense.Izuku had came to his decision he would not forgive her but he would forgive Shoko.

"Shoko,"Izuku paused gathering his thoughts and words one finale time "I-I think you should get help I can't forgive you unless it is the real you. I mean uhh.. you need help and I won't forgive you unless you get help."
"Why Izuku? Why are you so kind?" Shoko asked Izuku crying, but not because of what he had said but the dark thoughts she was having even while he was forgiving her.
"Because your.. uhh Shoko my Shoko. My big sister, best friend, and childhood friend. It because I know the Shoko I love would never do something like that." Izuku said with love.
"I know that Izuku, but why would you save a monster like me. This entire time you have been forgiving me I have been lusting after you. Every word you said made me want you more Izuku. So please just hate me so I can hate my self. I'm selfish we're you are selfless, we're you are kind I am a monster, we're you love I lust. You are so much more than I deserve. Please just hate me." Shoko finally let her thoughts out. Izuku extend his arms toward her, and Shoko clenched her eyes closed expecting pain. But instead found warmth in a hug. While Izuku did feel fear and every cell in his body told him to push her away he overcame them. Shoko felt guilt, happiness, and sadness all the cake out in Izuku's arms was sobbing.

They stayed that way for hours as if time had stood still. But all good things must come to an end, and so Izuku let go realizing a promise he had made was closing near. Shoko had fallen asleep. So he gently removed her head and tucked her into bed. He wrote a note saying he had went out. Then took his leave to the filthy beach know as Dagobah Municipal Beach park. To meet his hero that had given him a chance to live his dream. I took him around thirty minutes, but he got there.

"Ahh young Todoroki I thought you would never get here" Allmight greeted.
"Ahh s-sorry Allmight I had ... some family emergency." Izuku apologized
"Ohh that sounds bad is everything ok?" Allmight asked worried. Izuku's face darkened and Allmight realized he had stepped on a land mine.
"It ok Todoroki you don't need to" Allmight tried to say.
"No no it ok you might even be able to help me." Izuku interrupted
"Well if you say do please continue." Allmight said
"Well you see someone I love and hold dear did something really bad. But they uhh.. weren't in control of their actions." Izuku said with worry I his voice
"What did they do and not in control of their actions?" Allmight asked very confused
"I can't say what they did but they were very mentally unstable and only acted the way they did because of that." Izuku explained
"Todoroki you can tell me anything." Allmight said as he placed his arm on his shoulder to comfort him.
"I-it's ok Allmight thank you though for caring for me." Izuku responded.
"Alright if you say so. Do you want to train today?" Allmight questioned
"Of corse Allmight!" Izuku said happily
"Then let's us begin" Allmight commanded.

Hello people it 'tis i Lordgaben the creator of dis book sorry I took me so long to upload schools is hell. If you read my other books expect updates soon we are on break where I am at. Also neat fact all my books are written on my phone because it has autocorrect cause I can't spell. And one finale thing the book part is 1000 words I am a man of my word also pls remember to vote on which book I should axe(yes that is still going on)