I'm Sorry.............. Please Forgive Me................( A Tom×Tord Fanfic)

Chapter 10

Dont play the song till I say

Tord pov
And that's when I saw it lying bu the sink
                     A RAZOR!!
I know I shouldn't but I have to i grabed it and took it apart got the blade and pressed down on the sensitive part of my skin dragging it across my arm i smilied watching the blood roll down my arm i proceeded to make three more deep cuts over the sink I watched happily as the blood dripped into the sink "knock knock"
"Shit!" I said
"Tord are you ok in there? " tom said
"Y..yea tom just fine ill be right out" i said
"O..ok" he said
I the rinsed the blade off and fixed the razor and layed it exactly how it was then I washed my arm off and the sink, the blood kept coming tho but thankfully tom keeps a first aid kit in his bathroom I grabbed it and there was bandages I opened the brand new white bandages and wrapped my arm up then pulled the hoodie sleeve down the opened the bathroom door and walked out a little light headed I didn't see tom anywhere I saw my ukulele I picked that up and sat on the couch and started to play it to to the tune of let you down by NF
(play the vid noow)

"All these voices in my head get loud I wish I could shut them out I'm sorry that I let you down "
"L-l-let you down" I sang softly as I played
Toms pov·~·
I had walked to my room after checking on tord He said he was fine but i was kinda worried I was just laying on my bed thinking that I didn't hear him come out of the bathroom it was really quiet and I heard his ukulele I walked out of my room quietly and sat at the end of the hallway and watched him he started to sing
"All these voices in my head get loud I wish I could shut them out I'm sorry that I let you down" "L-l-let you down" he sang softly the song made me kinda sad but I loved his voice it was like the voice of a Angel I blushed at what I was thinking I stood up and walked behind the couch the said "I love your voice"
" ACK!" He jumped and ended up falling off the couch
"Ow! Wtf tom you scared the living shit out of me"
"Pfft- " I started to laugh and walked around the couch and helped him up
"I..its not funny" he said pouting
"It was kinda funny" I said
"N..no! It wasn't" he said then he just passed out Wtf wtf WTF i caught him and sat on the couch craddleing him
I really looked at him he was really pale "t..tord wake up please don't leave me" I started to cry letting the tears fall down which apparently woke him up "t..tom?"
"Tord!?!?" I hugged him tightly
"Sss" he winced slightly
"Tord don't do that to me you scared me half to death"I said
"Sorry but what happened?"
"You passed out"
"O..oh sorry" he layed down on me as I cuddled him close to my chest that's when I looked at his arm noticing a little bit of purple spots on the blue sweat shirt "tord can I see your arm"
"Wha- w..why" he said clearly scared
"Please tord let me see"
He sighed sadly and moved his arm toward me I grabed it gently and rolled up the sleeve and seen red stained bandages I slowly started to unwrapped them "hsss" tord hissed in pain as I did this "its ok" I unwrapped them all and looked at his arm it looked really bad there was about seven really really deep cuts and about four pretty deep as well "oh tord" I shook my head in disbelief
"I..I'm sorry s..so so sorry " he started to cry
"Shhhh its ok its ok I'm not mad"
"Y..your N..not?" He said in between sobs "no baby no I not mad at you" I said as I rocked back and forth "I'm sorry I k..know I shouldn't have b..but I just have to" he said laying down on my chest once again
"Its ok I know how its like I rolled up my sleeve to reveal old scars "w..when did that happen" he asked
"High school m..my dad abused me then I had to go to school just to be abused physically and mentally there too"
"By who?"he said
"No one important"is all I said I remember who its was it was tord and his little gang they picked on me all the time it i knew it hurt me more than it should have when tord did it but i didnt pay it any attention
"I..I'm tired" he whispered as he yawned and curled up on my lap he was just too cute he ended up falling asleep on me I picked him up and took him to my room sitting him down gently then walking to the bathroom and grabbing the bandages walking back to the bedroom tord had curled himself in a little ball 😍 I gently pulled his arm out of the little ball so I could wrap it in New bandages after I did that I sat the bandages on the nightstand turned out the lights and layed down with him pulling him close my chest as I fell asleep that night with a smile on my face