☹ She's so out of reach, and I'm finding it hard
'Cause she makes me feel, makes me feel,
Like I try, like I try, like I'm trying too hard,
'Cause I'm not being me, and it's getting me down
That she makes me think, makes me think,
That I try, that I try, that I'm trying too hard again ☹
•Calum's pov •
Beep, beep, beep, bee-
" Urg!" I groaned as I slammed my fist down on my alarm clock.
I got up and quickly showered off and brushed through my hair before pulling on a black tee shirt with a hoodie over it.
I grabbed my phone and an apple from my kitchen before hopping in my car to pick up Luke.
" Hey man." Luke said as he slid into my car.
" Sup?" I said as I turned on music.
" Nothing, hey question?"
" What...." I said annoyed already knowing where it was going.
" Why don't you like Lili? You've seemed to hate her since you first met her..."
" You wouldn't get it." I sighed.
" Whatever dude."
With that it was silent.
I parked the car and he got out while I sat there quietly collecting my thoughts.
' It's been almost two years...' I reminded myself.
Almost two year since the accident.
There she went. Walking right in font of my car.
She had her headphones in as she walked quietly ignoring the person trying to talk to her.
She was beautiful, she always was and it hurt.
I closed my eyes and inhaled a deep breath before finally getting out and going to school.
---- Lili's Pov ----
I shoved my crap in my locker before going into the girls bathroom to hide from the boys for awhile.
' It's almost been two years...' I told myself.
I let out the breath I didn't know I was holding as my back slumped against the wall.
A quiet sob escaped my lips before I heard the loud bell.
" Lili!" Ashton's voice screamed as he entered the bathroom.
" Ashton..." I cried as he picked me up and held me in his arms.
" I can't do it Ashton I can't be here!" I sobbed loudly.
" Than lets get out of here." With that he picked me up and carried me out of the school and to his car where we sat in silence as he pulled away from the school lot.
" Do you want to see them?" He asked calmly.
I nodded.
We pulled up to the grave yard at a sickeningly slow pace.
I got out of the door and ran to their grave stones.
' Mother and father, Ashley and Liam Jones. R.I.P.'
I fell to the floor in tears and felt my lungs closing up on me.
---- about two years ago ----
" I hate you Ashley! Can't you see you're suffocating me! I'm not perfect I can't ever be what you want me to be!" I yelled in the car as we pulled away from the family get-together.
" Liliana you will not speak to me like that young lady! You have no right!" She screamed back angrily.
" Shut up! you don't even see it mom! I'm not you! I can't be perfect with school and art and people! I realize that I'm just average and you hate it, but I am going to be me if it kills me!"
BEEEEEEEEEP!
crash.
Everything.
Went.
Black.
' But I'm going to be me if it kills me...'
Little did I know you'd be dying instead.
---- flash back over ----
I felt warm arms wrap around my waist as I slumped back into Ashton's embrace.
" Thank you Ashton." I croaked out.
" No problem Lili-bear, it's going to be ok, and it's not your fault." He whispered.
" Thank you." I repeated.
We sat there not speaking, but the silence was for paying respect to my parents.
After about three hours we stood up and got back in the car before heading out to get food.
' Lil what happened where are you?'~Luke
" Your going to have to talk to him about it some day..." Ashton said.
" I know I just... I can't today, it's to much today." I whispered.
" I know doll, I promise it will be ok."
' Wasn't feeling the best went home sick.'~Lili.
' Get well soon c: '~Luke
---- Calums Pov ----
The whole day was a mess.
" Dude what's wrong with you?" Luke laughed.
" Nothing, I'm just tired." I smile though I'm lying.
" Alrighty? So we on to hang out before your party tomorrow?"
" Sure."
---- Lili's Pov ----
" Now that we've eaten how bout that dress?" Ashton smiled.
" Alright..." I croaked out again.
We went to about ten stores before coming to an end and getting some dinner and heading home.
I picked up a light almost pastel pink dress.
It ended right above the knee and was a privet school girl type skirt and the top half of the dress was light pink with a floral laced thing over it with sleeves just pasting the shoulder.
It was beautiful and not to much. I paired white flats with it because I'm not into heels to much.
" Ok Lili-bear it's bed time get some rest tomrrows a half day soo I'm coming to your house after school." Ashton smiled as he switched of my light switch.
" Night ashypoo. Thank you for today..."
YOU ARE READING
Smoke
Fanfiction" What's your problem with me Calum? What did I ever do to you?" I screamed. " Just get out of here Lili!" He yelled back before shoving past me. I took in a deep breath and slammed my fist into a locker.
