Smoke

Ch. 13

" What you doing out here alone." Harry asked silently.

" Eh nothin." I said not looking at him.

" Hey, what's wrong." he asked pulling my chin up to face him.
I sat there silently not looking at him

.
" Is it because of Calum?" He asked again sounding angry.

" N- no." I glanced at his eyes.

" Promise."

" Promise."

" Lili. Let me take you out. on a date." He said smiling.

" Really?" I asked looking up at him.

" Yeah of coarse. so ?"

" Yes. Of coarse! -- I - uh - i mean psh I guess that'd be cool like whatever." I played off causing him to burst out laughing.

I scowled.

" Meany." I growled.

" Eh you love me." He smiled.

" Ehhh."

" I love you though." he laughed.

" Shut up." I laughed.

We walked to our last period before free block.
Again the day was slow.

At free block I went home to relax and read some books on wattpad.
' hey lil. I'll pick you up at 7:30 dress warm (: ' -Harry.

' sounds good ' I replied quickly.

' oh and what shoe size are you?0.o' - Harry.

' 7's.'

' kk see you then.'- Harry.

I quickly hopped into the shower to get ready for the date.
I was so nervous, excited, and shocked I could barely wait any longer.
Yet something in the pit of my stomach made me feel sick as if I shouldn't be going on this date with Harry.

I shook the crazy thoughts from my head and let the shampoo run out of my hair.
After the shower I wrapped myself in a white fuzzy blanket and grabbed some clothes.

// lili's outfit above //

After that I went downstairs and made some hot coco while I listened to some music.

* Calums Pov *

I sat there across the yard watching as that stupid Harry fucker took a seat next to my Lil.
They were laughing and smiling. But what really pissed me off was Lili was blushing! I mean it's not hard to make her blush, hell she blushes if someone she has known for years calls her pretty! And that one thing I loved about her, so he shouldn't be making her blush!

When I found out about their little date tonight I couldn't help but get jealous.
I wanted her to myself, she should be mine.

What if- if they kiss. I think my heart broke at the thought.
I turned away from them and stormed inside.
How much did I like this chick honestly?!

Guys like me don't fall in love. I'm a confusing player who knows everyone's next move before they even know it.

I took a deep breath in and rested my head against a locker.
I couldn't get the image of them kissing out of my head. I squeezed my eyes shut and ignored it as I headed to class.

------- after school ------

I took the long way home that day. Trying to stall myself from marching over to Harry's house and ripping his head off. I need to calm down Lili's just some girl I feel bad for hurting.

It doesn't even matter. she doesn't matter. none of it fucking matters.

Only after I had calmed down did I relies I was driving 98 miles per hour and slowed down.
I pulled up to my house and rested my head against the wheel for a moment.

I got up and went inside to do homework.

Only homework didn't last very long because I couldn't stop thinking about lili and Harry's date.
I went on Facebook and quickly asked around if anyone knew where Harry was taking lili, which was probably stupidly open but who cares.

After about twenty people someone said Harry was probably taking her to the ice rink his dad owns.
I smirked I was totally going to crash it.

It was about 6:30 so I pulled on a jacket and drove the the rink.
I got there at about 715 and entered the rink to find lili and Harry out on the ice holding hands as lili stumbled to stay on her feet.

I whom knew how to ice skate was looking forward to this.
I pulled on some skates. But I knew I was ruining her life.
I shook my head again. tears forming in my eyes. I hurt her once, I basically killed her parents. I led her on. I couldn't ruin this for her.

I got up after taking my skates off and headed towards the door.
Harry must have caught sight of me cause he marched over to me while taking off his skates.
" Why the fuck are you here Hood?!" He screamed.

I shrugged and made my way out the door.

" Stop fucking up Lili's life! You need to let her the fuck go and move on with life! She. Doesn't! Need. you anymore!" His word were harsh.

" Screw you man. You don't know me or her, so shut the fuck up and you leave me alone!" I screamed before punching him in the nose.
The feeling in my stomach told me I couldn't just give up though. I couldn't just give up on her.
I promised her id keep her safe

I wouldn't let her get hurt.

---- Lili's Pov ----

I watched the punch hit Harry and shut my eyes tightly as if that could stop it. As if maybe time would slow down for a bit and maybe stop.

I opened them when I felt a pair of warm arms around me. I looked up to find Harry holding me, careful not to bleed on me.

I smiled sadly.

"I'm sorry Harry, Calum's had a hard life. I don't know what's up with him. I think he just feels bad for the past and feels like protecting me will clean his slate." I shook my head as we got in the car.

" I understand, but Lil, I don't want you around him. I don't trust him." He growled.

" I can't promise anything Harry." I said gazing out the window.

" You have to promise this time Lili." He yelled.

I flinched at his voice and nodded my head.

" Ok... I promise." I whispered.

" Lil, I'm sorry it's just I- He's not a good guy. I can tell."

' You don't even know him!' I wanted to scream.

The car ride home was long and I just wanted to go and cuddle up with my blanket and sleep.
It started getting dark when I finally got home. I ran up to my room and let out and angry scream.
I hated Harry for bossing me around, I hated Calum being confusing, I hated Luke ditching him when I needed him the most. I hated myself for relying on them....

The world was a ball of confusing and broken hearts. I didn't want mine broken anymore.
I couldn't let myself get hurt again. I promised myself as I diffed of the sleep.