so there are people in my life who i think are fantastic, great at heart and just good people overall. And they just also happen to look cute at the same time. and sometimes i think i like them and sometimes i just say to myself, "hey, they're kinda cute" and then i move on with life. i dunno what i'm trying to get at here. i like dudes if any of u guys are wondering. um... i guess what i'm trying to say here is that, i never have the confidence to tell someone i like them because of the following reasons:
a) every time that i've told someone (3-4 ppl) they've all rejected me so i'm insecure
b) i'm insecure and just think about how they won't like me
c) i don't like feeling forced to have to tell someone my feelings that to me, don't even matter.
and it's also hard when u aren't sure who u can tell because u know how they'll act and so someone's u don't even say anything at all.
i kind of just want to ride out this life and see where it takes me because if i never get to know that feeling u get when u wake up next to the person u love every morning, that's okay with me. i've learned to except that ideal. but i really do want kids and they don't have to be biological so i'm okay with adopting and being a single mother.
i can't even explain how i got through all of this but it's just what's on my mind. yes i would love to meet someone that i could love and hold but i'm fine with not having anybody.
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Cerita Pendekthis book or "journal" will be filled with just thoughts i encounter throughout my days; thank you. :) . . . . *disclaimer* this may contain mature things, but i'm not sure yet so i do have it off, but if it does seem a bit out of your realm, feel f...
