The Rouge

Chapter 4

My legs were starting to feel a little tired from running. My fault for not shifting, but I kept pushing myself I knew I was almost there.

After a few more minutes of running I saw a clearing in the distance and I started to slow down.

I found this clearing when I was younger and I always just felt at peace and I could be alone with my thoughts. Well, be alone with my thoughts and my wolf.And for the last hour of running to this clearing she has been chewing my ear off.
"they are our brothers they were just trying to help"

"Who are you trying to convince me or you. And besides you just don't like the idea of us going rouge."

"You're right I don't," she continued talking but I just ignored her, which is harder than you might think. I didn't like the idea of turning rouge either but I didn't want to just sit around an bandage rouge bites. Yes wolves can heal with out being treated but we are still ordered to do it to. There are some bites and other wounds that could use a little help.

When I finally got to the clearing I laid down in the grass and let silence engulf me. It was getting dark but I didn't care and nobody else would care either. I don't have friends, I am just stuck with my brothers for the rest of my life.

I felt something in the back of my mind. Probably my wolf yelling at me still. So I stopped ignoring her "what do you want can't you let me be in peace for 1 minute!" She was annoyed with me I could hear the tone in her voice "sorry I just thought I would warn you that Jeremiah tried reaching you but he got worried and now he is on his way to the clearing."

Of course he is only worried about me when I am not following his orders. I would have gotten up to meet him halfway but I didn't have the energy and I didn't want to move from my comfortable spot on the ground.

After a few minutes I heard running from the edge of the clearing, and I knew Jeremiah had found me. I had a few minutes of silence and I heard Jeremiah getting close to me. He got closer to me and as he got closer I realized that when he chased after me he didn't bother taking off his clothes and then tying them around his ankles for when he shifted back. He didn't say anything and laid down in the grass next to me.

We stayed in silence until it started to get darker when he broke the silence. "You really shouldn't run away when it starts to get dark," I rolled my eyes, "but that's not what I came to talk about pup." I clenched my fists at the nickname. "I don't need another lecture, Ryder already gave it to me. I know I shouldn't joke around about going rouge but that seems like my only option now. I'm not like the other women and I don't feel like I belong. And I've tried to make dad happy but I just can't. He just doesn't understand that I can't be the perfect daughter. I can't keep living in the village knowing that he despises me."

I look over to hums and he looks to me and he sighs. "He doesn't hate you and I won't sugar coat it he doesn't love you either. You remind him to much of mom that's why he doesn't treat you like a daughter. He still blames himself for moms death and he has told me that every time he feels proud or even love for you he just can't help but blame himself. I know that's a crapy reason for him to treat you the way he does but he can't help it. I've tried to convince him it wasn't his fault and he needs to care for you but he just pushes himself away."

I felt like I was going to cry but I wouldn't let myself. Jeremiah and I both sat up and he tried to reach over to pull me into an embrace but I put my hand on his chest and pushed him away. " I am not hugging you while you are naked." I heard him chuckle. He stood up and quickly shifted. I stood up and hugged his wolf. " Thank you Jeremiah, how did I get lucky to get a brother like you. Now turn around so I can shift!" I let go and he turned away as I got undressed and I tied my clothes around my ankles and shifted. Then once again I followed him home.