Amara

Magsimula sa wala

You don't know who I am, I would like to believe I am not as bad as you would think I am. Hear me out and I will narrate my story, the story of how I lost my great love, Sophia Howell - Ishimoto my wife and the woman who stuck by me no matter what. Magsisimula ako sa wala, hanggang sa kung paano siya nawala sa buhay ko. Sophia and I were great friends. She grew up in the western part of the world where I was raised in the eastern part of the world. Japan to be specific. My life was ordinary, tanggap ako ng aking mga magulang when I came out to them as a lesbian. I was the heiress of a 5 star - Michelin Restaurant, my father worked hard most of my life, I was taught discipline and working hard for my own needs. Not that I am saying my parents didn't care, it's just that I was trained to budget my money they give me each month. Dahil hindi nila pinapa-sobrahan ang pera na ibinibigay nila sa akin.

I learned the value of money as early as 8 years old. My dad was best friends at dating kasamahan sa military ng Daddy ni Sophia. My dad was in the Imperial forces of Japan sent to Korea for the Korean War, Sophia's Father was sent to Korea as well by the British Royal Navy. Which was why we ended up as friends. I could only see her on her birthday and summer. Minsan sa Pilipinas, minsan sa London o sa New York, where she mostly lived her whole life.

I witnessed Sophia grow into a fine young woman, she was kind and beautiful. I was 16 when I admitted to her that I was Lesbian, I told her I had a girl friend that same year. In that same year, I have found out that the girl I loved was cheating on me. Nahuli ko itong may kahalikang ibang lalake nang minsan kong maisipang surpresahin siya at puntahan sa bahay nila ng Nanay nya.

That same year I came home to Mom and Dad's Right Hand man, fucking in the library. I was hurt tremendously by these things. I was never the same woman again after that year. I grew worst with Sophia. See, the problem was, Sophia is a habit for me, she made my life bearable, the things I witnessed are forgotten when ever we touch. She had the power to change me, I was resistant to change. I grew insecure of her, dahil sa bait at ganda ni Sophia, any man or woman richer than me could steal her, including her best friend Jaycee Castro.

Huli na ng malaman ko na si Jaycee pala ay isang Gay Man, he had a boyfriend for a long time. Pinagsisihan ko ang ginawa kong pag-babanta sa buhay nya sakaling lumapit siya ulit kay Sophia. Sophia was devastated when Jaycee didn't come to our wedding. Labis na dinamdam ito ni Sophia. Ngunit gayon pa man, buo ang desisyon nitong mag-pakasal sa akin.

To summarize, I have cheated on my wife Sophia with multiple women and multiple times, I actually lost track. Sophia and I had a child named Marionne Clarisse Howell - Ishimoto. We were married but separated during that time she conceived her. I was not aware of this, some of our friends have visited her when she gave birth to Yoyon, Pero dahil nga sa galit sila sa akin nung mga panahong iyon naging tikom ang mga bibig nila kung sino ang ama ng bata.

I always thought Sophia got pregnant by another man. It wasn't until Yoyon was five years old when I met her. I found out she was mine, Sophia had undergone IVF with out me knowing. I suppose she didn't have the heart to tell me, kasi sunod-sunod ang mga kagaguhan ko na nalaman niya. She remarried once our annulment got finalized. Her wife Glaiza De Castro o Glaiza Castro Galura, died a year ago of Nasopharengeal Cancer. Ibinilin nya sa akin ang aking dating asawa at anak ko.

I have been watching her all night as she greeted guests and colleagues of Howell Lifestyle Inc. at age 47, she was still as lovely as the day I loved her. That first moment she smiled at me, some 33 years ago. Hindi pa din kumukupas ang mga kislap sa kanyang mata, it was my favorite part of her, her brown orbs which tells you how she is feeling. She shivered from the cold December night. This was my queue to approach her, which I did.

I draped over her shoulders the suit jacket I was wearing. She smiled thankfully at me.

"I think you're cold." I said as I sat at the adjacent chair beside her.

"I was. Thank you." She replied to me.

I placed my arm around her at ini-hilig ang ulo nya sa balikat ko. She was silent the whole time, she didn't speak or rebuff my advances.

"I miss you, love. Terribly. I just wanted to hold you again." I whispered into her ear.

It made her smile a bit, something familiar about her smile. A grateful smile, I would say.

"I miss being held like this, too." She replied.

As we watched the people come and go, I spoke to her once again.

"Love, pwede ba ako na lang ulit?" I said so with out looking at her.

"We'll see." Was all she said.

It was good enough for an answer, though nothing was definite between Sophia and I, I know I wanted another shot with her, to be the man she deserves to have. This time, I swear I am never hurting her again, this time we will stay together until the end of time. Have you ever heard of the saying 'Love is sweeter the second time around' (?) Call me corny but I believe in that saying. Gagawin ko ang lahat para lang maayos muli ang relasyon namin. Magiging mahirap ito, lalo na hindi na din naman ako nagkaroon ng ibang girlfriend o nakipag-landian sa ibang babae. The last 22 years, I focused on healing myself from the pain my Mother Carmina had caused me. The pain Lovi had caused me. Masasabi kong buo na ang pagkatao kong muli, buo na ang tiwala ko kay Sophia.

Well, it was never lost or broken. I have known Sophia since bata pa lang kami, she is trustworthy as she is easy to trust anyone. Siya yung pinaka-mabait at maasahan sa mga kaibigan namin sa College. She has given me another chance at managing my Father's Chain of Restaurants called Rising Sun, hango sa Japanese monicker sa Japan, The Land of the Rising Sun.

Sophia and her Father had the softest heart, which was why my Father and I were saved from debts from foreign companies. Ngayon pa lang muli nakaka-bawi ang Papa sa pagkakalubog sa utang. My daughter and her girlfriend Eileen Ong are here tonight, I watched them as they danced. To be honest, I am thankful for Sophia and Glaiza for raising Yoyon to be a fine young woman that I was not even half of. Masaya ako ngayon because Sophia and I ended up to be great friends at wala na akong mahihiling pang iba.

A/N:

Eto nanaman nga tayo ano? After two years, malalaman nyo na ang tunay na ending ng Sophia. 😂🤣✌️

Nangangamoy may chance ang dalawa. Sa tingin nyo? O ayawan na talaga? 🤣😂✌️ Salamat dear readers, nadinig ko naman ang mga complaints ninyo, sadyang may ibang mga plano lang ako. 😂✌️ Tara? Next chapter?

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