Amara

First Day (Dejavú)

I woke up to find Sophia already up and about, naghahanda na ito ng breakfast sa suite namin, she was uncovering the plates served in a tray. I sat up in bed and stretched my body before wiping the sleep off of my eyes. I remember her on mornings like these, in fact walang araw ang lumipas na hindi ko siya naiisip kapag mulat ko ng mata. She looks back to me and smiled gently at me as she said.

"You're finally up. Come join me for breakfast." She said.

"I'll be with you in a moment." I said as I got up from bed and went into the bathroom to freshen myself up. Once done, lumabas na ako mula sa banyo and joined Sophia at the table where she sat and sipped on her coffee.

This instance felt like home to me, this is how we were supposed to be all these years if I hadn't hurt her and cheated on her. If I was sensible enough to really care for her and how she would feel if she found out I cheated on her. Ito sana ang matagal na naming ginagawa na mag-asawa. She smiled at me and placed her mug down.

"Kain na love." She said to me with a smile on her face.

I was still arrested at the sight of her smile, it's been after all 17 years since I have woken up to her smile and care. I would be lying if I told you that I was happy when we parted ways. Ni hindi ko naisip na nasaktan ko siya ng sobra sa mga maling desisyon ko sa buhay.

"17 years and you still haven't changed my love." I said to her as I took a seat in front of her.

"Love, I always loved you, alam mo naman yun eh. It's just that you've hurt me. I just want to make sure, hindi mo na uli ako sasaktan hindi ba?" She asked me. 

"Love, if there was one thing I learned it is to never hurt you again, I promise to be true to you Sophia." I said to her. 

"Because I can't do this anymore, Amara. I want to make sure na hindi ulit mauulit iyon." She said. 

I chuckled lightly at her worries, it's not that I am not serious about her but I find her rather cute at this instance, paano kasi, we are both in our prime, we were both 47 years old.

"Why are you laughing?" She pouted at me.

"Love you do realize na hindi na ako pwedeng mangbabae o manakit hindi ba? I'm 47 years old love, konti na lang kulubot na ang balat ko. Konti na lang at baka mabaldado na ako. I can no longer live a gregarious life." I said to her. 

She laughs rather absurdly loud at the statement I just made. 

"Love naman eh! It doesn't matter if you're 47, bakit nga yung iba 80 years old na pero madami pa din silang babae? Bakit yung iba ultimo mamamatay na lang nananakit pa din." She said whining. 

"Love, I am unlike any other men. I have learned that I was wrong." I said to her. 

 "Promise mo?" She said pouting. 

"Yes, love. I swear to God I won't do that ever again. Araw-araw kitang liligawan ulit, araw-araw kitang aalagaan." I said to her.

"Good enough for me." She said as she took a sip from her coffee. 

We were brought out of our reverie when a knock was heard at the door, I stood up and opened the door. It was Yoyon and Eileen. Yoyon smiled goofily at me and asked me.

"So, kayo na ulit ni Mommy?" Yoyon said as she kissed me on my cheek.

"Oo, anak. Kami na ulit ng mommy mo." I said to her.

"I knew it, ang bilis talaga ng mama ko. But promise me never hurt her again Ma." She said as she made her way to Sophia.

"Of course anak." I said to her.