My life as Okuhle😏

CHAPTER SIX😜

Craziest year ever was about to begin.

First day of school came and I had already created a new mask I was going to use for high school.

I was going to be the ordinary church girl who happens to sit at the back and talks to no one.

I guess I was as scared as any other grade 8 child starting in a new school.

My only worry was not being liked by my fellow classmates because I knew that most people didn't like me or perhaps I should say "were not very big fans of me" I just was not ready to deal with high school and the whole drama that came with it.

I mean am enough drama on my own so I guess that's enough for me.

My first day was okay I mean most people seemed to like me due to the way I spoke and my "cute face".

Plamedi Nkongolo showed me so much kindness I never really thought that people like her existed. She was extremely sweet to me also her friends were I mean what more did I want.

I then became close with Precious who was really a darling. Before I knew it a guy by the name Gugu came to join us. I felt a deep connection with him he looked like a normal guy who happened to be beautiful which was weird but what I did not like about him was that he really reminded me of Zandi Mazingisa.

I'll talk more about Zandi later on in the story.

I then began to think maybe i had a chance with him.

As we spoke he then asked why we make it sound as though he is a guy but actually she was a girl.

I was shocked. But I guess I liked it.

Although I was angry she never told us from the start she was a girl,I mean I had already fantasied dating him or should I say her even up to this day this still confuses me.

I did not want to date a girl because I knew my mom would not approve and I really wanted her approval and I kind of knew she would not approve of me being a lesbian.

Was I a lesbian or bisexual?

I guess am as confused as any other teenage about my sexuality.

So I was in 9c my class teacher was Mr Botha my first impression of him was scary guy but honestly deep inside he was as soft as a teddy bear.
I really enjoyed being in his class because I've always liked having strict teachers and trust me when I say he was the strictest teacher I've ever had.

Sometimes he would be extremely strict sometimes very soft.

My classmates were unique I mean a lot. For the first time ever there were other people of other cultures for example Adediwura Beckley was Nigerian,Kavharendwe Dabula was Venda, Kgalalelo Magoai was Tshwana,Lesedi and Naledi Makwela were Pedi etc etc.

I was just shocked I mean I've always been used to having Zulus and Xhosa's only in my previous classes.

One thing I quickly learned about my school was that the most spoken language was Setswana and Sepedi.

One thing about me is that I have always been very stubborn so when I was told to practice Setswana I thought that was foolish so I was not going to do it. But luckily all the years I spent watching Skeem Sam and bioskop were helpful because I understood Sepedi and Setswana.

The most scary part I guess was having to do Afrikaans I mean it was hard considering the fact that in primary I had done it for two years so back then I enjoyed it but I doubted I would still enjoy it.

*Special thanks to everyone who has been so supportive since I started writing this book it really means the world to me and also I would love to give special thanks to everyone that has been sharing the link to read the book.
For that last few weeks writing this book has not been easy because it really challenged me to face my past and not be ashamed of it but just embrace it because it makes me a better person. I would like to thank all my close friends for sticking with me all the time and never letting me be on my own it means everything to me*

*To my mother thank you for allowing me to write this book,you approving it means so much to me trust me and I love you so much*

*To my primary friends who played a huge role in my life but are not mentioned in the book forgive me guys some events I am not able to remember*

*In the next couple of chapters things become really epic but always remember that no judging because we all learn from our mistakes*

*With this book I hope to spread the message #YOU ARE NOT ALONE because some people tend to believe the world is against them and that type of thing but sometimes that's not the case you just to open yourself up and you will realize there are others like you*

To tell you the honest truth I was not going to let anyone find out about my past I mean I actually saw this as an opportunity to start a new life.
As they say the truth will always come out in the end it the person you really are will just expose itself.

I did everything I could to maintain the new person that I was but deep inside I felt that I was fooling myself as I did not feel happy with who I had portrayed myself to be.

*YOU WILL NEVER BE HAPPY WHEN PRETENDING TO BE SOMETHING OR SOMEONE ELSE,, BEST ADVICE IS ALWAYS BE YOURSELF ALL THE TIME NEVER CHANGE WHO YOU ARE TO PLEASE EVERYONE.