My life as Okuhle😏

CHAPTER FOUR🤗

*FINAL YEAR OF PRIMARY*

It was first day of school once again but this time around I was a senior.

My heart was racing as I was extremely scared of going to school once again because the previous year a lot of things happened and I kind of shut down,I didn't want to talk or participate in anything I just wanted to be alone.

I arrived in school and I was allocated to Miss Gcaba's class,this was it my final year of primary.

I wanted to do things differently I just didn't want to have a terrible year like I did in grade 6.

Days passed and a new grade 6 guy started showing interest in me he was cute and all,but I wanted to do things differently meaning dating a different gender.

I guess I had my eyes fixated on two people Lungelwa Mnomiya and Aviwe Mfiki they were both in the same class.

I do admit that I also had a small crush on my neighbor Senzo he was in high school doing Grade 11, I didn't mind I liked him.

*REMEMBER NOT TO JUDGE*

I was as confused as hell I didn't know what I wanted let alone who I wanted.

School was going well my relationship with Unalo became better I guess who both allowed pride to get to us.

I started hanging out with Aviwe more and we became friends with benefits. I must admit I had thee best time with her I guess I told myself she wouldn't hurt me because she was a girl. 

As for Senzo I told him that Iiked him
I also did the same thing with Lungelwa I told her that I liked her I guess it was a way of making sure I had a back up plan in case one of them decided to break my heart. I was guarding my heart with all that I had,I was not about to let another person leave me heart broken.

As months passed my grandmother found out about Lungelwa from one of the teachers and that night she beat the crap out of me. Following day I went to school oh boy from that day I never liked the teacher again.

Once again I shut myself out from the world I became shy and Lusanda then started bullying me so bad it actually had a huge impact on my self esteem and my entire life.

I still remember the lies she spread about me around the school she made me feel so ugly.

I didn't want to go to school I began hating school I then told my grandmother.

I started eating healthy and drinking more water so that my skin would be cleansed after few days I felt refreshed.

I started feeling good about my self.
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I guess all I needed was a push from Lusanda to make sure I became the best of myself.

I then started a NO BODY SHAMING campaign I guess having to deal with Lusanda taught me a lot of things.

I mean most teenagers were made to feel bad because of the way they looked.

With the NBS I worked along side with thee best crew Sinakho Mavundla,Amanda Xaba, Amukelani Madikane,Aviwe Gobeni,Nathan Hargreaves,Lona Nkomo and Zandi Mazingisa.

I believe we helped so many of our peers change the way they saw themselves.

Around September Senzo got stabbed and that was really heart breaking for me.

My mom came to visit us and she had gotten engaged to a nice guy I was happy for her.

Weeks passed she came to visit again she had bought a car Golf 5 I was happy for her.

She then told me she was applying for me in Pretoria I was so happy I mean I really needed a new type of air I was so happy.

I was then invited to a family ceremony by my aunt.
I was told me father was around oh boy trust me I was ready to tell him I hated him.

There he was standing I felt I was seeing a male version of myself. I was not quite sure it was him because it had been so long since I last saw him.

My aunt told me that it was my father.

For that weekend I had never felt so much joy in my heart.
Once again I allowed him to make so many promises,I allowed myself to love him.

He then left and never called me ever again. I was shattered 😥😣.

I can't believe I allowed myself to open up for him so much.

Ever since then I cut him off completely from my life not that it even mattered to him.

I mean why couldn't I just be like all my other half sisters and brothers and not care about him at all.

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Only few weeks were left I was about to finish primary and go to secondary I couldn't wait.

I made sure I enjoyed the last weeks of torture and repaired all broken but good relationships.

*TO MRS MALUNGUZA*

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR STANDING WITH ME AND HAVING MY BACK ALL THE TIME.

YOU ARE THE BEST AND NEVER FORGET THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND WISH YOU SO MANY GOOD THINGS YOUR WAY.

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