Lost Herself On The Way 👣

Part 6 👣

A week later
Birds chirping and singing flying high to  start its day, flying in flocks and some all alone. The sun peaks through the clouds sending some warm rays and aiding the birds to find their way this early dawn. Squirrels move swiftly from branch to branch with a notorious sound. The view is such a blessing with the green trees, shades of sky with the sunlight bringing the vibrance.
And here I'm seated admiring this beautiful view from my room balcony with a cup of strong coffee , while thinking how hectic was the past week and wondering what awaits next in-line for me. To be honest I'm questioning my confused self because I'm in a neutral emotion it can be called emotionless or whatever, what am I feeling right now? What is it just happened? How should I feel right now ? so these questions keeps popping up in my head and I myself don't understand.

~ Flashback
'Ummi what do you mean?' 'Aunt Riya said that she knows the boy really well and he is related to her. He is living and working abroad and he is a boy with a humble character and professionally an IT administrator. He is 7 years elder to you. And right now he is on vacation and here with his family' said mom while I listened to her calmly. 'And also the same proposal was brought forward to us six months back as well by one of his relatives , we didn't consider it since you was still schooling then and after that it was not brought up again. And his name is Rayyan a very humble boy' after Ummi said the details I finally remembered that I have seen him 10 years back not exactly when I was small when he threw me a rose apple plucked from his garden. Back then we were very small and I barely can remember his features but still I can remember him. The only thought I have is why would his family bring the proposal here because they shifted from our hometown to the city long time back and they are settled there ever since I know them. I'm small in age compared to him will he accept me? Or is it a random proposal? I just kept my thoughts away and asked mom what do you think. She said it's up to you as far as we know you are not in any relationship and I said of course and also she said let's tell dad about this. 'You don't stress yourself Sarah "What is meant for you will reach you even if it is beneath two mountains, what isn't meant for you will not reach you even if it between your own two lips". So put your trust on Allah, and remember Sarah me or dad, we will never force you into anything'. She said me these and reminded me how supportive they will be with me. I'm blessed to have them in my life Alhamduliallah.

~ End of flashback

So this is what happened a week ago and my dad and mom didn't have any objection for his family or him. They just waited for my response and to clarify it more my uncle who lives abroad contacted one of his junior mate and had a chat regarding Rayyan as he is one of his friend living with Rayyan. Also I was given one of his picture too and to be honest I liked him and guys c'mon don't think I'm going for looks anyways but c'mon he is handsome with a beard and a solid body frame, his face showed humbleness and peace too, ok ok it's enough I guess I'm becoming cheesy here .And everything was positive but still I was not ready to process what really is happening around me actually. My uncle with whom I'm close with spoke to me and asked me what my fears were and why do you still think. And to be honest I was confused so that I was not in good state to give an answer but I did pray isthikara and it was positive too, and finally I decided I'm ready and told my parents to process this and I told them I don't have any objection, so today it's been a week since I said my answer and till now there's no any response from Rayyan's family.
I don't know whether I'm worried, confused or hurt.

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