Embracing Flaws (On-Going)

ANG SIMULA

Simula

Has the life already screwed you so bad to the point of almost giving up?

I wonder out of billions of people in this world.

How many will survive the chase?

How many will opt to stop instead?

And where do I belong in those two?

Of all the people in this world, why does it have to be me? Why does it have to happen?

If this is the destiny they are talking about, then screw it.

I can still vividly remember how perfect the world I am living in and how I possess the most beautiful things the life could offer. I have witnessed the beautiful side of it, and I don’t want it to falter. However, as I continue to follow the phase of life, I realized that it is not always like that. That what was given to you now does not guarantee that you will have it for the lifetime.

Perhaps I am just completely unfortunate not to be granted of a good life. That all these problems and sufferings are really bound to keep me.

I know that I am not exactly good but maybe this is the price of being irresponsible. This is the consequence of choosing the path we know from the start we couldn’t take.

“Mama!” I shouted on the top of my lungs.

I don’t know how long I have been sitting here crying alone in the shore. The beach is breath taking, the waves meeting the sand every now and then. The sky losing its magnificent blue hue and slowly turning to sepia. And the horizon catching the setting sun. It is a perfect afternoon scenery that should comfort one’s soul. But definitely not for me.

I am exhausted. I was just eating an ice cream earlier then suddenly I couldn’t find my Mama anywhere I go. My feet and eyes are sore from endless walking and crying.

I decided to stop instead. But I can’t help but weep again because I can’t see a single person anymore around.

I’m lost.

“Hoy bata! Ang ingay mo naman. Alam mo ba na baka magising ang mga higante sa isla na ito kung mag-iingay ka ng ganyan? Halaka sige!” Isang batang mas matanda ng konti sa ’kin ang biglang sumulpot.

Higante? Giant? Monster? Seryoso ba s’ya?