Club Gold

God Won't Forgive Me For My Sins

We stayed up all night. Obviously.

We had to plan, we had to get revenge.

Beck's expression stayed the same, it was still sinking in what had happened. After his mom kicked him out, Elena was like his new mom. Just this lost, vacant look remained on his face while tears pooled in his eyes.

Jaxon was drunk. Angry drunk. I'd never seen him like this before, harsh shadows across his face from the moonlight as we kept the lights off. He was out for blood.

Then again, so was I. While Elena was a mom to the guys, she was my best friend. We would do everything together when I stayed with her, we went shopping, did makeovers, hell, we even set up slumber parties some nights despite living in the same apartment.

"Are you ready to kill?" Jaxon asked, his voice still sharp despite the alcohol, "Do you see it as revenge, or will you still feel remorse?"

"He isn't human," I replied, "It'll be like killing a spider on the wall, except the spider didn't do any wrong."

"You don't have to be the one to do it, is what I'm getting at," He said, "You just have to get him away from everyone, we'll be right behind you."

"I'm no angel, Jax," I said with a smirk, "But something tells me this is your kill, not mine."

"Thanks for taking the hint," He chuckled darkly.

"You mean we have to wait?" Beck whispered weakly, "I can't just break his ugly nose the moment we see him?"

"While that would be wonderful, we would definitely get caught."

"And I want him to feel alone," Jaxon muttered, "I want him to feel helpless. I want him to die knowing that nobody is coming to save him, I want him to die knowing he's dying. I want to see the fear in his stupid, beady eyes."

"We should get some sleep," I said, "Got a big day tomorrow."

~~~

I wasn't sleeping great. It was one of those where you'd fall asleep for like half an hour or so before waking back up, like you're drifting in and out of sleep.

I heard my door creak open. Beck was standing in the doorway.

"I don't wanna sleep, I don't wanna know what kinda fucked up nightmares I'm gonna have."

"I'm struggling too," I sighed, sitting up.

"This is the first time I think I've ever experienced loss," He mumbled, sitting on the edge of the bed, "I don't know how you've been as strong as you are. I mean, I guess I lost my parents and my sister in a way, but I can't say I felt anything over it. Family are supposed to care, and they didn't. Elena was family. We all were."

He stared at the ground, the moonlight shining through the tilted blinds the only light in the room.

"I'm scared, Dani. I don't wanna lose anyone else."

"You won't have to. We're sorting it tomorrow."