RUNAWAY

CHAPTER 15

"Kongpob you don't really have to do this," Arthit said as he placed his hand on his lover's.

Kongpob shook his head. He sighed as he looked at Lia who was playing on the slide. They had gone to the park and played with their daughter for a few minutes and soon found a scheduled area for them to sit in the park.

"I want this P. I don't want you to wait anymore," Kongpob said as he held Arthit's hands tightly in his.

It was painful for Kongpob to rewind all the memories of those harsh days and he couldn't guarantee whether his trauma will hit him hard when those painful memories come to his mind. But he wanted Arthit to know this and help him walk past these hard memories by his love for him.

"My life was not like everyone thought of P. Even you could not have imagined that my life was a total mess. For others who saw me from outside would see me with jealous eyes because of being born in a rich family like Suttilaks. Everyone would think I born with a gold spoon. Everyone was jealous of my life, my big house, Pa's big business company, everything. But for me, growing up in a family like this was torturing." Kongpob had a bitter smile on his face which made Arthit's heart in pain.

"For my Pa and Mae, I was an accident. A child which was the result of their sudden lust, but not love. They had already decided after their second child that they don't want any children. They focused more on their business enterprise. But then my Mae got to know that she was pregnant with me. Do you know? They even tried to abort me, but they somehow thought against it. They wanted to know what the gender of the baby was. If it was a girl they will abort it, if it was a boy then they were more happy that there will be two sons for them to look after their business after their time," Kongpob chuckled.

"But after I was born, nothing went as expected. Just after 10 months, I was born, the company profit came tumbling down. The company was at great loss. And my parents started to see me as the reason why this happened. They blamed me for their loss. They believed I was a bad omen for the whole family. The company's issue went forward until I was 2 years old. Somehow the company didn't manage to gain the old enthusiasm.

But then my elder brother, who is 7 years elder than me, got a 1 million scholarship at that time because of his intelligence in studies. And to cover it all up, he gave the scholarship money for the company rather than joining a school in New Zealand, from where he had got the scholarship from." A tear dropped from Kongpob's eyes, which fell on Arthit's hands.

"My Pa used that money to start a new business, along with one of his friends. The business came as a click! Somehow it managed to bring their profit back and the company earned those millions every month. And Pa and Mae along with my sister believed that it all happened because of my brother and they started seeing their future in him, ignoring me completely."

"My Pa and Mae never loved me, my sister didn't too, they were always busy with their lives and the only one who cared for me was my eldest brother, P'Noel. Even though he was the reason why my parents ignored me, he saw everything in a different way. Whenever I cried at night seeing nightmares, Mae would never come to look at me. She would come to my room and shout at me for being a disturbance to their sleep. I was sad, depressed. Then P'Noel would come to me and sit beside me, calming my mind and would even sleep with me." Kongpob smiled at the memories he had with his brother. He wished he could see him one day again, just like how he saw him at the mall.

"P'Noel had been my mother and father even in the presence of my parents. I would ask my brother all the time why my parents and sisters don't like me, why they are always behind money. He would only smile at me and kiss my forehead and tell me to not think too much. He told me to study hard and bring good grades to the family then sometimes my parents will notice me. From that time onwards, my life was only to impress my parents. I brought good grades, I was the first in school academics and even sports but somehow my parents didn't give a heck about it." Kongpob sighed. He wiped his tears and took a deep breath. He waved at Lia who waved at him.