What It Is (Harry Styles AU)

Three (What a night out can do)

Three (What a night out can do)

 

“I’ve learned that you can’t predict [love] or plan for it. For someone like me who is obsessed with organization and planning, I love the idea that love is the one exception to that. Love is the one wild card.” – Taylor Swift

“You know sometimes I wonder what happened to the cute and sweet little freshman wearing that tight short skirt and the biggest smile I’ve ever seen combined with that dreamy glint in your eyes,” Luke states quietly letting out a sigh as I glare at him. “Seriously, what happened to the girl who wouldn’t stop blabbering about how amazing life is-“

“Oh my god, Luke. Will you shut up! If I knew that we were taking a trip down memory lane I wouldn’t have bothered to come out.”

I watch as he frowns his eyebrows and purses his lips. “Sorry, I was just trying to have a moment. I thought it’d be nice to reminisce about how things were back in college. Sometimes I forget that you once were so-“

“So what? Naïve? Dumb? Innocent? Stupid? A pushover?”

“No! You weren’t any of those things. You were hopeful and gentle and nothing could ever bring you down. It didn’t matter how much crap you went through with your parents and your sister or how every guy you’ve ever dated turned out to be an absolute asshole. You were always so damn happy. If it were any other person I probably would have found it annoying, but I always thought that there was something so endearing about your personality.”

I stare straight ahead and try not to think about his words, because honestly I hate being reminded of how I used to be. Everybody who knew me before had an opinion about the ‘new me’ and every single one of those people seemed to think I’ve changed for the worst. Except for Luke. He has never said much about it. He’s been nothing but supportive and understanding of my change in beliefs.

So now that he’s bringing this up I feel as if he’s going to say what everybody else already has.

“Is there a point to this conversation? Is there a reason you brought me here?” I ask, my voice emotionless.

When Luke said he had a surprise this was most certainly not what I had in mind. I had fixed my blonde shoulder length hair up in a ponytail and put on some light makeup, having no idea where Luke intended on taking me, I tried to dress neutrally which was way harder to do than I thought.

He texted me that he was outside, he never comes inside because he wants to avoid running into Paz, let’s just say those two really don’t get along. I got in the car and fastened my seatbelt not even bothering to ask where we were going because he would just tell me to wait and see.

I hate surprises but I never hated one as much as I hated this one.

He brought me to the cemetery to see my dad. My dad whom I had strong hate for while he was alive which only managed to grow when he passed away. Usually people are forgiven once they’re dead, but not my father. He didn’t deserve anyone’s forgiveness especially not my mum’s, but still she caved in when she got the tragic news of his death.

Everybody he ever hurt and betrayed- and let me just say there were a lot of people who that happened to- came to the funeral as if what he’d done to them didn’t matter anymore. Just because he died all of the bad stuff he’s done was forgotten.

Not by me though, I will always resent that bastard.

“Just wanted to talk. It’s been over two years, Lara, don’t you think it’s time you’ve moved on?”